what am i supposed to do when i cannot kill myself?

[neverbeenbetter]

what can i do? i hate being alive but i cannot kill myself because i have no method thats actually going to work.

 

[Zegers]

There is always a method. you can try the jump, it's fast and effective from a certain height, you can try the gun, if you have access to it.

 

[neverbeenbetter]

There is always a method. you can try the jump, it's fast and effective from a certain height, you can try the gun, if you have access to it.

theres no where high that i can jump from, and theres no gun i can use. the only gun i had was a shitty hand me down .22 which i would have shot myself with had it been a higher caliber, 22 can barely penetrate the skull. i just want out of this shitty fucking life, ive been trynig to catch the train that comes around near me so i can put my head under the wheel and have all the shit in my skull poured out.

 

[Zegers]

what about book a hotel room for it? if i choose this method i will do in airbnb

 

[neverbeenbetter]

what about book a hotel room for it? if i choose this method i will do in airbnb

i am very very very poor

 

[Zegers]

Sorry man, hope you can figure out a way out.

 

[locked*n*loaded]

ive been trynig to catch the train that comes around near me so i can put my head under the wheel and have all the shit in my skull poured out.

That will do it as long as you can keep your head on the track (SI). Can you get a rope and find a tree?

 

[HopefulButPrepared]

i am very very very poor

can you just wait a bit and get the money together to buy a gun and some SN - If I had access to guns I'd drink SN, whilst sitting precariously on a high ledge, or standing on a high ledge with a wall behind me so there's no where to go but forwards, so that I'm inches away from falling, then shoot myself in the head - how someone could survive that I have no idea

 

[FuneralCry]

I understand, it really is so unfair how hard it is to leave this life behind. The reason as to why I am still alive is because of limited access to methods. It is cruel how others take away method options and try to make suicide as difficult for us as possible. All that existence is, is a meaningless struggle full of endless problems all for the sake of it. Suicide should be accepted, nobody should be forced to suffer. I understand the feeling of being desperate to leave. Life really is so horrifying. I hope that you find freedom from what you are going through.

 

[CannotAnymore]

I understand what you mean... Mostly it's survival instinct, your mind won't let you take that step. I have gotten close but then I can't just DO IT and it sucks because my inability to just end it makes me hate myself even more..... People think it's easy to CTB.... It's not.

 

[neverbeenbetter]

I understand what you mean... Mostly it's survival instinct, your mind won't let you take that step. I have gotten close but then I can't just DO IT and it sucks because my inability to just end it makes me hate myself even more..... People think it's easy to CTB.... It's not.

the main issue i have is that i dont have a reliable way to die and its hard to find the energy to do something like take a bus down town find myself all the way up a building and jump.