Method What am I supposed do ?

[gardenhouse]

I've been feeling so awful and suicidal lately, and wanna end my life as my suffering seems has no end.

I've read the PPGB, i wish i had access to all the substances easily but of course most people don't unless you are a medical professionals.

I got a contract source to obtain NB but the harsh punishment if you get caught makes me think a million times. Even though that drug seems to be the best option for going CTB without much pain.

SN is discussed a lot here but sourcing is strictly regulated, since it's used as a self harm tool, the authorities have made it difficult to obtain, i have a business but not a food industry business, so suppliers are not gonna sell it to me.

CM, the sell of CB tank is not tor public as it's flammable toxic gas, you can do it from home but the process is not easy, and if you don't do it carefully, you might end up having a failed Attempt of suicide that gives you a permanent damage.

HS is easy to make by mixing hydrochloric acid and calcium sulfide, the substances are available for public to purchase but the smell is awful and you won't have a peaceful death, PPGHB ranks peacefulness only 3.

I live in nz and i believe dangerous substances are even more strictly regulated here than the US.

 

[wine is fine but]

what are you supposed to do?

you are supposed to breathe in and then breathe out - deeply down into your stomach, and continue

at the very least your mind will be able to process things clearer and give you a chance to see a solution one way or the other


what is your business?

 

[gardenhouse]

what are you supposed to do?

you are supposed to breathe in and then breathe out - deeply down into your stomach, and continue

at the very least your mind will be able to process things clearer and give you a chance to see a solution one way or the other


what is your business?

I've done every possible solution that experts have advised me and it doesn't work. I got tinnitus 6 months ago and i haven't been sleeping since then, sleeping pills no longer work, sound therapy doesn't work as i'm a light sleeper, white noise makes my brain focus on it but doesn't shut down. Even if I manage to sleep, it's only for 1 hour, and then i wake up and can't sleep anymore, I hear the high pitched jet engine sound in my head 24 hrs that no one else can hear, it drives me crazy. I can't live like this any longer.

I run a webstore.

 

[wine is fine but]

I've done every possible solution that experts have advised me and it doesn't work. I got tinnitus 6 months ago and i haven't been sleeping since then, sleeping pills no longer work, sound therapy doesn't work as i'm a light sleeper, white noise makes my brain focus on it but doesn't shut down. Even if I manage to sleep, it's only for 1 hour, and then i wake up and can't sleep anymore, I hear the high pitched jet engine sound in my head 24 hrs that no one else can hear, it drives me crazy. I can't live like this any longer.

I run a webstore.

i am not questioning what you are going through, but it seems that you are in an angry, or overwhelmed type mode. you cannot think straight in that situation. at the very least, you are not thinking outside the box with one of those options, but i am sorry, i cannot give you anymore of an idea than that

what do you sell?

 

[gardenhouse]

i am not questioning what you are going through, but it seems that you are in an angry, or overwhelmed type mode. you cannot think straight in that situation. at the very least, you are not thinking outside the box with one of those options, but i am sorry, i cannot give you anymore of an idea than that

what do you sell?

I see, sorry for giving the wrong answer, I'm not angry though, more like confused and can't think straight, because the most peaceful and way to go is the hardest to obtain, and the easiest to do is the most painful

How about you? Why are you here?

I sell preserved flowers, not my main income though. I have a main job.

 

[OnMyLast Legs]

I got a contract source to obtain NB but the harsh punishment if you get caught makes me think a million times. Even though that drug seems to be the best option for going CTB without much pain.

Does NB mean Nembutal? If so, are you sure you've really found it?

 

[gardenhouse]

Does NB mean Nembutal? If so, are you sure you've really found it?

Yes, found the reliable source but it's illegal to import in most countries including here in nz. here in nz assisted suicide is legal only if you are terminally ill and about to die in 6 months, they don't realize there are many people out there who feel life is not worth living anymore, they can't simply look at the medical records.

 

[wine is fine but]

I see, sorry for giving the wrong answer, I'm not angry though, more like confused and can't think straight

How about you? Why are you here?

I sell preserved flowers, not my main income though. I have a main job.

no worries - no one wants to be guilt tripped in feeling more pain, or to have someone patronise them

i am here because i can relate to many people on here

i guess preserved flowers do not need sn, do they? either way, i assume you would need the appropriate paperwork to be able to by it anyway

i guess angry mode wasn't the right terminology either - probably frustrated might have been better

 

[gardenhouse]

no worries - no one wants to be guilt tripped in feeling more pain, or to have someone patronise them

i am here because i can relate to many people on here

i guess preserved flowers do not need sn, do they? either way, i assume you would need the appropriate paperwork to be able to by it anyway

I think Sn is mainly used in food industry, definitely not preserved flowers. Unless I fool them, also SN itself is not enough, you still need to get drugs that sedate you unconscious otherwise you'll be in pain the overdose of SN takes effects. I just wish that the DDMAPh drug was easy to obtain, most of the them are prescription drugs and the M is the hardest to get.

 

[fightclub17]

I've done every possible solution that experts have advised me and it doesn't work. I got tinnitus 6 months ago and i haven't been sleeping since then, sleeping pills no longer work, sound therapy doesn't work as i'm a light sleeper, white noise makes my brain focus on it but doesn't shut down. Even if I manage to sleep, it's only for 1 hour, and then i wake up and can't sleep anymore, I hear the high pitched jet engine sound in my head 24 hrs that no one else can hear, it drives me crazy. I can't live like this any longer.

I run a webstore.

I had insomnia for months. The hospital prescribed Olanzapine which fixed my insomnia. It's worth looking into antipsychotics to help with sleep. Or go to hospital so they can put you on meds while monitoring you.

 

[gardenhouse]

I had insomnia for months. The hospital prescribed Olanzapine which fixed my insomnia. It's worth looking into antipsychotics to help with sleep. Or go to hospital so they can put you on meds while monitoring you.

I've been on sleeping pills lorazepam, zopiclone, but once i'm off sleeping pills i can't sleep, i will be up all night, i never had insomnia before, my insomnia is caused by my tinnitus, if I wasn't a light sleeper, this wouldn't be hard.

 

[itsgone2]

I've been feeling so awful and suicidal lately, and wanna end my life as my suffering seems has no end.

I've read the PPGB, i wish i had access to all the substances easily but of course most people don't unless you are a medical professionals.

I got a contract source to obtain NB but the harsh punishment if you get caught makes me think a million times. Even though that drug seems to be the best option for going CTB without much pain.

SN is discussed a lot here but sourcing is strictly regulated, since it's used as a self harm tool, the authorities have made it difficult to obtain, i have a business but not a food industry business, so suppliers are not gonna sell it to me.

CM, the sell of CB tank is not tor public as it's flammable toxic gas, you can do it from home but the process is not easy, and if you don't do it carefully, you might end up having a failed Attempt of suicide that gives you a permanent damage.

HS is easy to make by mixing hydrochloric acid and calcium sulfide, the substances are available for public to purchase but the smell is awful and you won't have a peaceful death, PPGHB ranks peacefulness only 3.

I live in nz and i believe dangerous substances are even more strictly regulated here than the US.

I forgot about this chart
The downside of carbon monoxide is the danger of it. People live close or finding you.
If you work hard to eliminate that then maybe this is the best option

 

[gardenhouse]

I forgot about this chart
The downside of carbon monoxide is the danger of it. People live close or finding you.
If you work hard to eliminate that then maybe this is the best option

Not if you do it in the car, carbon monoxide can be very effective, but again it's not available for public. Nz is very paranoid about safety, which is ridiculous oftentimes.