What age do you see yourself reaching?

[Cauliflour]

I can't see myself getting past my early 40s and I'm perfectly fine with that. If I start pushing 45 and still alive then I'll be getting really agitated. Besides, I think by then I'll have all the projects I wanna make made and if I keep self harming at the rate I'm at then I'll be covered in stitches by my 40s anyway with my wrists gone floppy. Also life just seems to get depressing when you reach middle age: people start dying off, healthy living really matters so no more picky eating, hormones start fucking you over, detachment from the younger generation and I'd much rather just die young but not so young that the media starts going on about how much of a "tragedy" it is like they always do whenever a pretty girl in her teens/20s commits suicide. I don't want kids so no worries of traumatising children, it's a great plan! ...apart from my parents. They'd be retirement age at this point and all 4 of my grandparents are still alive so they'd probably still be alive too with these genes. They'd be really sad if they outlived me.

Makes me wonder how the older people on here have the will to keep going. If I woke up one day and 50 years of my life had passed, there's no way I'm sticking around.

 

[solely.pain]

I have a plan to ctb soon so I'll probably die in my early 20s. I doubt I'll make it into my 30s or even late 20s.

 

[Cauliflour]

15. Ive set the date to be 1 year since ive last seen my girlfriend. Wish me luck

15 as in 15 years later from this date or 15 as in that's the age you can't see yourself reaching...

 

[rainhappy]

I can't see myself getting past my early 40s and I'm perfectly fine with that. If I start pushing 45 and still alive then I'll be getting really agitated. Besides, I think by then I'll have all the projects I wanna make made and if I keep self harming at the rate I'm at then I'll be covered in stitches by my 40s anyway with my wrists gone floppy. Also life just seems to get depressing when you reach middle age: people start dying off, healthy living really matters so no more picky eating, hormones start fucking you over, detachment from the younger generation and I'd much rather just die young but not so young that the media starts going on about how much of a "tragedy" it is like they always do whenever a pretty girl in her teens/20s commits suicide. I don't want kids so no worries of traumatising children, it's a great plan! ...apart from my parents. They'd be retirement age at this point and all 4 of my grandparents are still alive so they'd probably still be alive too with these genes. They'd be really sad if they outlived me.

Makes me wonder how the older people on here have the will to keep going. If I woke up one day and 50 years of my life had passed, there's no way I'm sticking around.

I don't think I'll live past 25—at least, I really hope not. If I don't die, it means I'll have changed my outlook on life, which is a choice I obviously recommend .

 

[RadiantNumber]

32 and I am 31 now thats means that I'll die in this or next year

 

[Cauliflour]

I don't think I'll live past 25—at least, I really hope not. If I don't die, it means I'll have changed my outlook on life, which is a choice I obviously recommend .

Damn I wish I was a normal suicidal person lol. I'm too fucked in the head at this point to really go back so I just wanna see how far I can go now, y'know like a personal test of a sorts. It's not healthy at all but it's either that or wasting precious time in therapy soooo...

 

[rainhappy]

Damn I wish I was a normal suicidal person lol. I'm too fucked in the head at this point to really go back so I just wanna see how far I can go now, y'know like a personal test of a sorts. It's not healthy at all but it's either that or wasting precious time in therapy soooo...

I don't think the term "normal" is appropriate . I fantasize about suicide and want it to become a play, so for me it's not a test but a "That's all, folks" (quote from Mr. Puzzles—I love that guy ). That said, even with therapy—and I'm in therapy—sometimes it doesn't make a difference. But you can find hope in life one way or another, with or without therapy .

 

[lastappleonearth]

I can't see myself getting past my early 40s and I'm perfectly fine with that. If I start pushing 45 and still alive then I'll be getting really agitated. Besides, I think by then I'll have all the projects I wanna make made and if I keep self harming at the rate I'm at then I'll be covered in stitches by my 40s anyway with my wrists gone floppy. Also life just seems to get depressing when you reach middle age: people start dying off, healthy living really matters so no more picky eating, hormones start fucking you over, detachment from the younger generation and I'd much rather just die young but not so young that the media starts going on about how much of a "tragedy" it is like they always do whenever a pretty girl in her teens/20s commits suicide. I don't want kids so no worries of traumatising children, it's a great plan! ...apart from my parents. They'd be retirement age at this point and all 4 of my grandparents are still alive so they'd probably still be alive too with these genes. They'd be really sad if they outlived me.

Makes me wonder how the older people on here have the will to keep going. If I woke up one day and 50 years of my life had passed, there's no way I'm sticking around.

I honestly don't know, but I can't see myself in any future, no matter how many years from now. You know, I just can't picture it and I don't see myself ever getting past my youth, though who knows

 

[PeaceSeeker83]

Well I never saw myself getting to 40 let alone 43 so i can't give any guarantees but I am working through my plan and I am definitely at an age to go.

 

[NPCaesar]

15. Ive set the date to be 1 year since ive last seen my girlfriend. Wish me luck

Bro, that means you are 14 right now. Get off this site. You have your whole life ahead of you. Dont do something like ctb just because of your gf. I mean, I obviously dont know your situation but at your age you can literally still do anything with your life, turn it fully around, change everything and I mean everything about it...
ending it now would be such a waste...

 

[Cauliflour]

Bro, that means you are 14 right now. Get off this site. You have your whole life ahead of you. Dont do something like ctb just because of your gf. I mean, I obviously dont know your situation but at your age you can literally still do anything with your life, turn it fully around, change everything and I mean everything about it...
ending it now would be such a waste...

Yeah that's what I was thinking but I didn't want to outright state it cause I felt like it wasn't my place to considering I'm only 19.

Also yeah 14 year olds are just children who have recently learned what existentialism is.

 

[SilentVelvet]

If things go well, I'll definitely turn 52 and then lose my mind. Or maybe just 26

 

[CopingWithSenility]

15. Ive set the date to be 1 year since ive last seen my girlfriend. Wish me luck

Get off of this site. You have a whole life ahead of you. Death will come for us all. You are a teen, still a child, and something so final as death is not a decision you should make this early. CTB can wait. It is sure as hell not something a minor should be thinking of. Seek help.

 

[hellohowareyou]

I can't see past 35. I'm 31 now.

 

[CopingWithSenility]

Appreciate the help but i really cant. Ive been really really fucked up for so fucking long and i really cant keep going like this. Sorry

You are far too early in life and far too young to make a decision like this
Please heavily reconsider your choice as there are likely many people around you willing to provide help
You are at an age unlike most people in this platform where there is still hope for you to turn your life around

 

[Pluto]

 

[Mr.Ruben]

Makes me wonder how the older people on here have the will to keep going. If I woke up one day and 50 years of my life had passed, there's no way I'm sticking around.

about my 30's hit or miss, I think im too stubborn to die as of now

 

[marina27]

realistically... I don't know. Maybe early 30s? If i can take it til then.
One of my goals before dying is to move out and see if that (that being, living alone) makes life more bearable or even more unbearable for me. So also maybe after that.

 

[Cauliflour]

realistically... I don't know. Maybe early 30s? If i can take it til then.
One of my goals before dying is to move out and see if that (that being, living alone) makes life more bearable or even more unbearable for me. So also maybe after that.

oh hey, it's your first post! welcome!

 

[westernromanpatriot]

i cant see myself reaching 25

 

[Mr.Ruben]

Appreciate the help but i really cant. Ive been really really fucked up for so fucking long and i really cant keep going like this. Sorry

although young that reminded me of this meme, if nothing can stop your decisions, try to have a good time until then, best regards.

 

[marina27]

oh hey, it's your first post! welcome!

hey! i've been lurking for many years hahaha. i came back to write a thread on my experience with sn lol

 

[mustard tiger]

i am 39 and i dont think i will see 40. if you are anything like me, life doesn't get better. I wish I killed myself 10 years ago.

 

[Cauliflour]

i am 39 and i dont think i will see 40. if you are anything like me, life doesn't get better. I wish I killed myself 10 years ago.

What's being 30 like? Some people say you're still in your youth but others say you're halfway in the grave...

 

[mustard tiger]

What's being 30 like? Some people say you're still in your youth but others say you're halfway in the grave...

well i was pretty miserable but everyone else seemed to be having a good time

 

[passthisnote]

19 which i currently am i do not want to go past this point it's too hard

15. Ive set the date to be 1 year since ive last seen my girlfriend. Wish me luck

yo why are u on here bru go enjoy hs and having no responsibilities

 

[Cauliflour]

19 which i currently am i do not want to go past this point it's too hard

Yeah older people just expect you to deal with all these sudden big changes and then throw a fit if you decide to "take the easy way out" and kill yourself. Also doesn't help that they keep fucking up the planet and we have to deal with the consequences while they keep going on about "how easy the younger generation have it".

 

[PeaceSeeker83]

What's being 30 like? Some people say you're still in your youth but others say you're halfway in the grave...

Just saw a post where somebody has a 98 year old grandmother. 30 is young. You are in your young prime. However, having said that it is still 30 years on this planet in itself. Regardless of viewpoints, I think a lot of us will agree life is far too long based on the real possibility of living to 72 at bare minimum realistically.

 

[ela]

i'm pretty sure i'll ctb by my birthday at the latest.

 

[LonelyPrince]

30 Is my limit, don't wanna go any further than that.