Welp, this is it

[Dizzylady80]

I fought a hard fight, but I think I'm done. Turns out I'm not able to get the procedure that could've fixed the horrible pain I have, and remaining treatment options aren't effective. I've ordered my supplies, they're in the mail. I don't want this, I don't want to die, I want to live life without feeling like my skin is being ripped off constantly. But that's just not an option for me. Maybe I'll be more at peace with it by the time everything gets here.

I'm sorry to everyone here who was rooting for me, y'all are such good people, I really mean that. Whoever reads this, I hope things get better for you. There's a lot of love and beauty in this world, and plenty of time to find it. I'll probably make a goodbye post once I'm ready to go.

 

[FuneralCry]

Your feelings are understandable. That does sound so horrible what you have to endure and I cannot even imagine how hard it must be having to suffer like that. Life really is so cruel. Best wishes.

 

[Rational man]

Im sorry this is happening. The human body is so fragile. We all decompose until our body dies. Its awful that you cannot get treatment. I feel your pain and i wish you peace from this monsterous condition. I agree, there is beauty outside an d also inside and what you are experiencing is simply awful.

 

[Arrow]

what you're having to go through is horrible, and the world is a despicably unfair and cruel place. but there is beauty too, and i hope that for however much more time you spend living you're able to see and enjoy it. i'm sorry and i hope for the best for you, friend.

 

[Deleted member 10090]

Not in the same position as you but I sympathize and can relate a bit. I've struggled with doctors since 2018 to get proper care and treatment only to be dismissed 95% of the time. Trying med after med to no avail and not having the option to have a say in my treatment. Finally finding something that somewhat works and gives me enough quality of life to get some things done, only to be ripped off the med a month later because of possible dependence and addiction outweighing suicidal thoughts due to pain. It's outrageous that doctors do not take us seriously.

I can only imagine how hard you have fought and knowing you truly want to live is heartbreaking. You have immense courage to fight as long as you have and I despise the doctors who do not let you have a say in your medical treatments and push it under the rug. It's unfair, it's cruel, and not humane in the slightest. To be pushed to the edge because of your body and doctors' lack of care is deeply saddening.

I hope before the time comes to CTB, your doctor will have an empathetic change of mind.

 

[old red eyes]

I fought a hard fight, but I think I'm done. Turns out I'm not able to get the procedure that could've fixed the horrible pain I have, and remaining treatment options aren't effective. I've ordered my supplies, they're in the mail. I don't want this, I don't want to die, I want to live life without feeling like my skin is being ripped off constantly. But that's just not an option for me. Maybe I'll be more at peace with it by the time everything gets here.

I'm sorry to everyone here who was rooting for me, y'all are such good people, I really mean that. Whoever reads this, I hope things get better for you. There's a lot of love and beauty in this world, and plenty of time to find it. I'll probably make a goodbye post once I'm ready to go.

I feel your pain and empathise sadly totally...I had it all on a plate and managed to self destruct in a terrible irreparable way....medics didn't diagnose me but it was my fault totally...will leave an awful dialogue and history behind which will shock the world..from highest high to lowest low...