I won't go into it but my array of mental illnesses and neuroses have made me a terribly sad figure to look upon. I have over several years become so very ill that I feel certain that I am beyond repair. Maybe younger me could've done a few things differently and had more of a will to partake in the world but it would be a struggle anyway I think. Much of my problem is aesthetic and the world is a rather shallow place. It's not all the problem, I've other problems besides but it's a major reason I lack hope going forward.
I see how things are going forward but I don't want to be pushed beyond what this poor state can handle and suffer pointlessly or burden others and just impose on everyone which I inevitably do. I hope I'll be forgiven for all my folly.
I see how things are going forward but I don't want to be pushed beyond what this poor state can handle and suffer pointlessly or burden others and just impose on everyone which I inevitably do. I hope I'll be forgiven for all my folly.
