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[hybridtheory]

i currently have covid, depression, and suicidal thoughts
i feel like absolute shit, i honestly would rather die right now.
if i could somehow find the energy to get off my couch i think i would
try to commit tonight but i haven't made any solid plan...

how are you guys holding up ?

 

[BluesRunTheGame]

I had both some depression and anxiety today. Self-medicating with booze tonight (like every night). Kill me now!

 

[hybridtheory]

I had both some depression and anxiety today. Self-medicating with booze tonight (like every night). Kill me now!

ah i feel you, i drink every night as well.

 

[theboy]

Well, writing my suicide note

 

[Lone Wanderer]

Hope you feel better. Having covid sucks. The headaches are the worst. Could barely sleep at night which drove me mad. But yeah, I'm holding up okay. Just slowly planning my departure.

 

[locked*n*loaded]

So sorry you are suffering with Covid along with all the other crap. Hope you feel better from the Covid soon, so all of yourself can be devoted to just feeling depressed and suicidal. Seriously, though, I hope you feel better soon.

 

[Deleted member 10090]

In a pain flare currently, chronic pain has been making me miserable and is adding to my depression and suicidality. Sorry you felt the need to come back and are not doing well. I hope you can find some solace here.

 

[chocolatebar]

how are you guys holding up ?

I don't even know how to answer this question... I feel pressured and cornered in a way that I can't even ctb with all the loose ends and the mess I would make. I can't stand to the fact that some people I dislike who did some bad things to me would benefit from my death.

 

[FuneralCry]

I'm always extremely tired of existing and as usual I wish that I am gone. Life is just never ending misery and suffering. It's beyond unfair how it's this difficult to leave this world. If I was no longer here then I would not have to put up with existence any more and instead I would be free from it all. Being alive is extremely pointless. I'm sorry that you have to deal with covid. One of the worst things about living is that if we think things are bad now, they can always get much worse.