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etrnllxid

etrnllxid

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Aug 9, 2023
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I just bought a shotgun with what money I had left over from my job. (that treated me terrible)

This is the closest I've ever been yk, I can't afford to buy it in cash but I got it out on my credit card. I forfeit all attempts to pay it off and my good credit was seemingly for nothing. I'll have to pick it up from the store when it's shipped, the ammo I can just buy in person. I just gotta act neurotypical enough to not be questioned. The pickup date is in a few days and coincidentally I turn 21 before I get to pick it up.

But man.. life really doesn't get better you know? at least in my case it's never gotten better and my ability to relax is fucked up.

If you have a comically terrible life like mine, I'd love to talk. Stuff I never thought to tell anyone until the end.


A MONTH LEFT 🎉🥳🥳🥳
 
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I'm here for you if you want to chat. Big hugs to you.
 
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what kind of shotgun and ammo will u get?
 
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I'm here if you need support or to vent. I can relate very much to what you said and despite my hypocrisy in feeling that way myself, I do believe things can still change and be good for you. It makes me so sad to think about you working just to survive and being treated terribly. You don't deserve that and it makes total sense you feel so exhausted. <3
 
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whyyyyyyyy

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May 26, 2020
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I just bought a shotgun with what money I had left over from my job. (that treated me terrible)

This is the closest I've ever been yk, I can't afford to buy it in cash but I got it out on my credit card. I forfeit all attempts to pay it off and my good credit was seemingly for nothing. I'll have to pick it up from the store when it's shipped, the ammo I can just buy in person. I just gotta act neurotypical enough to not be questioned. The pickup date is in a few days and coincidentally I turn 21 before I get to pick it up.

But man.. life really doesn't get better you know? at least in my case it's never gotten better and my ability to relax is fucked up.

If you have a comically terrible life like mine, I'd love to talk. Stuff I never thought to tell anyone until the end.


A MONTH LEFT 🎉🥳🥳🥳
Why's your life comically terrible? I like your levity in spite of whatever is making you suicidal. cheers
 
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etrnllxid

etrnllxid

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Why's your life comically terrible? I like your levity in spite of whatever is making you suicidal. cheers
Without fail for my entire life since, forever. I was born into a house of infertility and was mistreated since I resemble my father. Didn't help that I was ND aspie (unchangeble debilitating condition) But from times of homelessness that's been reoccurring to low income infested with pests. Drugs were involved.

Also I have seen cruelty and sexual abuse from a young age.
what kind of shotgun and ammo will u get?
Maverick 88 (shotgun) and probably some buckshot.
 
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