Weed, workout and (during the rest-period between sets) meditation - My download (thoughts?) - Choice

[mouthyindian]

This will be quick. Just thought I'd share. Gonna go back to the workout after this.

Smoked some and began thinking.. Why not go back to basics? What do I want now? Feel good or feel bad?
Feel good.

Great! So why not work out?

Meh, wtf is the point?

Back to basics.

Guess no point long term, but for now, it'll make be feel better.

Great!

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**Starts push-ups**

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**Rest.** **Shuts eyes, deep breaths and just lets thoughts flow**

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The problem was always choice. I chose to stop working out these last few months. I chose to eat a horrible diet this last week. No wonder I feel like shit all the time! Lets see if this whole 24/7-suicidal-thoughts-thingy continues later on. But for now, I feel good and I don't gaf!

 

[rationaltake]

Brilliant! This might be useful for people in the Recovery Section.

 

[mouthyindian]

That's what I thought initially, but assumed that this wasn't going to be a permanent thing. Plus, I really just wanted to get the post over with (in other words, vent) and continue working out.

But I'll think about it next time if before i post something like this.

 

[cheesepancake]

Working out is pretty much the only thing that helps me feel better these days. Would probably smoke up but that's illegal in India, and I am too much of a wimp to obtain some lol