I feel much more comfortable around fellow broken people than I do around people who "have it together".. I see a bit of myself in every poster on here, people who have given up, people who are just simply tired of living... I always wanted to blow my head off with a shotgun, but now I know that I would somehow even fuck that up and end up surviving.. I have accepted the fact that I will never have the guts to ctb.. I am a complete failure in everything, including ending my life
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Deathbydemo
Mage
- Feb 15, 2020
- 518
I hear you. This is the one place I can truly be myself right now. It's so comforting.
Jblack
Specialist
- Oct 8, 2018
- 314
This really is a safe zone. I do not worry about being judged by others here. Posting and reading other posts has a sort of calming action for me. This really is a comfortable place to retreat to.
Into The Void
Student
- Mar 10, 2021
- 196
I'm not broken but I've been broken in the past. And suicide by gun is a terrible method of choice. There are plenty of peaceful and dignified methods.
Umbreon
Weed Addict
- Aug 20, 2020
- 90
Celerity
Visionary
- Jan 24, 2021
- 2,871
Death is death, man. I don't think there's anything dignified about it. The cleanup will be grisly, but you won't be around to experience it. Done right, using a firearm is the single most effective method for suicide.
FarAcrossTheWater
Experienced
- Sep 4, 2020
- 273
People don't understand what it's like to lose it all. I've thought long and hard about CTB. I've never been more sure of CTB. I have spent five years planning out my peaceful end. Other people don't get it. They're going to try and give us overused one liners that they think will solve all of our problems. There is only one answer.
Into The Void
Student
- Mar 10, 2021
- 196
There is no evidence that getting shot in even the brain stem is painless. Every cell processes pain locally, it's not just done in a module in the brain. Until each cell runs out of oxygen blood and neurotransmitters that cell with feel pain.
NormaJeane
Member
- Mar 24, 2021
- 648
Hello suicidefriends! Agreed! But with time everybody will be broken and no one can escape death, so I suppose everybody will end up on this website eventually. Our aging population leads to many age-related ailments and disabilities. I want to live and die with dignity - not pass through a wheelchair death!
Sprite_Geist
NULL
- May 27, 2020
- 1,699
First of all it is great that this forum gives you some level of comfort, it is definitely soothing to be able to express yourself truly without the fear of persecution.
You are allowed to speak for yourself, but not everyone else in this community would consider themselves broken. In fact, judging from some of the posts by other users, many of them come across as functional people who were brought here because of severe mistreatment from others, so if anything it is the abusers and the environments that they live in which are "broken" - not them. Perhaps that is wrong of me to say, and maybe some of us are damaged to an extent, but being damaged does not mean broken. It can be difficult to tell either way without truly knowing somebody personally.
Also no one really "has it together"; they may act like they do, but they do not. Life in general has no set standard(s) or rule book, and there is no end objective - at least from a philosophical perspective. I think that the majority of people, both suicidal and non-suicidal, try to simply go along and live life, while putting on a face, but deep down none of us really have any idea of what to do or what is happening - it could all be random chance.
Trisolaris
Arcanist
- Dec 11, 2018
- 447
Feel the same as you. This forum is the only place where I feel comfortable.
LunarPyotr
Похорони меня возле МКАДа
- Jul 4, 2020
- 507
I wouldn't say that.
We all have our own flaws and one day you`ll find a method that is suitable for you.
I`m just saying...
People get creative when they have too much free time ^^
Wayfaerer
JFMSUF
- Aug 21, 2019
- 1,938
Aside from the plan of self-termination, I still find it hard to relate to people even here because my circumstances are so distinct. Sometimes I read something from someone on this board and be shocked at how closely it applies to me but that's very few and far between. I wish I could be more open but that wouldn't be wise. I've had a lot of trouble with relating to other depressed people because I've always felt that my depression was strongly contextual and situational.
nebulaz
Member
- Mar 11, 2021
- 22
Old Thread but I feel exactly the same. I don't even come around here too much because I can't relate to people with depression or any other mental problem- even physical problem. My reason for suicide is completely situational.
Cockney_Rebel
Everything you want is on the other side of fear.
- Jan 7, 2021
- 455
StateOfMind
Liberty or Death
- Apr 30, 2020
- 1,195
Aeathelina
Little Homeless Girl
- Feb 5, 2020
- 307
I can't function around overly positive people. Tried it but it was just so awkward.
Being here I can rant and rave and pour myself out without any judgement
FuneralCry
Just wanting some peace
- Sep 24, 2020
- 48,680
Yes, we certainly are broken. Existence is a cruel thing.Dont understand why i am still here i feel i should have gone long time ago
DarkWolf
Worthless Loser
- Mar 29, 2021
- 201
I'm broken and empty. No one understands.
My spirit is crushed and no one sees me.
So much pain and suffering.
Too much despair. Too too much.I just can't feel good. Trapped in a body damaged by illness and medication. Don't want to suffer anymore.
same here.. it's all just too much to bearSimilar threads
