I really don't want to traumatize anybody with my death, it feels like a cruel thing to do. I don't have a drug history so any OD would clearly be ruled a suicide, I don't want to go down the 'accident' route because I'd be traumatizing an innocent person, and I'm not sure how to go about this.. Any tips? Would drowning maybe work? I just don't want it to be extremely painful either.
Honestly, the thing that I have been grappling with is that regardless, your death will be traumatizing to people that love and care about you.
Drowning would be difficult unless you are potentially taking a bunch of sedatives before you go out to the water, which would make you pass out. But even that is risky because somebody might see you drowning and then they might be able to get help in time.
Also, if you do die in the water and there's a rescue team that is sent out to get you, you might traumatize people that see it when they bring you out on the shore.
The accident route is probably the only way for it to seem like - as the name implies - an accident, but that risks traumatizing other people who might see it (besides just those close to you when they find out) - and it's probably very difficult to fake an accident that would indeed allow you to CBT. I can't even think of one..
Maybe a car crash? But that puts other people's lives in danger. 'Accidentally' falling off a bridge/building would probably not look like an accident, and again - traumatizing for anyone that sees.
All the methods that I've been researching on here would be difficult to rule out as 'natural' because when someone dies young, and they don't really have a history of some kind of medical condition that would have them die suddenly - then it is a law for a coroner to order an autopsy - at which point they would be able to find out how you went.
I'm sorry to say this, but I'm just being honest.
I also want to traumatize my family/friends as little as possible, so I was planning OD + potentially CO poisoning in a tent in a park by my place & sending a scheduled email to a friend who would then call the police in the morning.
This way I would not be discovered by my dad - who I live with. Because that would be a nightmare, even though I'm sure finding out from the police would be its own kind of nightmare.
I don't want to do the hanging method because that's probably more scary for whoever discovers the body & I can't do that in a park & risk someone seeing me before the police.
So yeah might be best to just choose a more peaceful way to go rather than trying to make it look 'natural' cuz it won't & people will be horrified regardless.
& also sorry you feel like this.
Sucks wanting to die badly enough to actually plan it…