Help Watching CBT videos for desensitization

[Snailey]

Does anybody else do this? I've been trying to stomach videos on WPD to get more comfortable with CBTing but every method seems awful and painful. I want to exit so bad since things will never improve and I missed every shot at it, but it feels like everything is overwhelmingly terrifying.

Every hanging video i see people are flailing at the last minute, SN people are wreching and shaking, jumping just seems awful, self-inflicted gunshots seem better but getting one where I live sounds impossible. Gun range is completely out the question because I have personal qualms about involving other people in a CBT. Weirdly enough I can never seem to find CO exit bag videos and I'd like to atleast see the process before attempting.

Has it worked for anyone? Are there better ways to feel more comfortable?

 

[kennex]

Where do you see those videos? What is WPD? I've been trying to find any source for videos and letters but it's very hard in clear net...

 

[Into_The_Void33]

Does anybody else do this? I've been trying to stomach videos on WPD to get more comfortable with CBTing but every method seems awful and painful. I want to exit so bad since things will never improve and I missed every shot at it, but it seems like everything is overwhelmingly terrifying.

Every hanging video i see people are flailing at the last minute, SN people are wreching and shaking, jumping just seems awful, self-inflicted gunshots seem better but getting one where I live sounds impossible. Gun range is completely out the question because I have personal qualms about involving other people in a CBT. Weirdly enough I can never seem to find CO exit bag videos and I'd like to atleast see the process before attempting.

Has it worked for anyone? Are there better ways to feel more comfortable?

I do. I tend to rewatch to try to find some comfort in hope that these individuals seen conscious. Once I see their bodies convulsing while hung it terrifies me. I heard there's a "sweet spot" where you can place the noose and some different ways to try to achieve higher chances of blacking out quicker.

 

[ilovenewyork]

Those videos are a warning. There is no painless way to ctb and it's frequently awful. So maybe just don't do it.

 

[itsgone2]

Where do you see those videos? What is WPD? I've been trying to find any source for videos and letters but it's very hard in clear net..

Watchpeopledie.tv.

Every hanging video i see people are flailing at the last minute,

Yes but they typically start peaceful. They may not be conscious at the end. But it's confusing because you'd think it would be opposite. Agree? At least it seems this way in ones I've seen.

 

[geepeedee]

Those videos are a warning. There is no painless way to ctb and it's frequently awful. So maybe just don't do it.

this is highly misleading. gunshot to head, inert gas, CO are all painless. SN sometimes too. why are you even on a suicide forum with this kind of attitude?

 

[ilovenewyork]

What would make you think being shot in the head is painless? Looks pretty darn painful to me. Just because they stop moving doesn't mean they stop feeling pain.

The SN videos I've seen are very questionable. We don't know what they're going through because SN paralyses through hypoxia before killing. The reviews from some survivors on the forum often tell a story of desperate panic and regret. On the goodbye threads we take their silence after having drank it as evidence of a quick passing, but we don't really know how it plays out.

The body is a complex system designed to survive. You can't easily shut it down but you can make death look "peaceful".

 

[Snailey]

Where do you see those videos? What is WPD? I've been trying to find any source for videos and letters but it's very hard in clear net...

WatchPeopleDie

Apparently it used to be a subreddit but was banned so they moved it to a website. They tag every video, so ive been going through the CTB videos every day (a lot of reposts apparently). I'd recommend avoiding the comments section, there's some really sadistic people who write awful stuff.

 

[geepeedee]

What would make you think being shot in the head is painless? Looks pretty darn painful to me. Just because they stop moving doesn't mean they stop feeling pain.

The SN videos I've seen are very questionable. We don't know what they're going through because SN paralyses through hypoxia before killing. The reviews from some survivors on the forum often tell a story of desperate panic and regret. On the goodbye threads we take their silence after having drank it as evidence of a quick passing, but we don't really know how it plays out.

The body is a complex system designed to survive. You can't easily shut it down but you can make death look "peaceful".

Getting shot in the brainstem = instant loss of consciousness, afaik. There's no pain without consciousness.

Peacefulness and pain are two different parameters. And your original statement was about pain, not peacefulness. And there are painless methods; some of which may not be peaceful.

 

[interna]

The body is a complex system designed to survive. You can't easily shut it down but you can make death look "peaceful".

i agree with this.
one of the things you have to make your peace with before dying is that:
1. more often than not, it'll be painful, uncomfortable or anxiety-inducing,
2. you might or might not regret it,
3. you might or might not be conscious as you die,
4. you'll never actually know until you're dying
it's a matter of going through with it (or not) while keeping in mind it's probably gonna suck at least a bit.

 

[Snailey]

What would make you think being shot in the head is painless? Looks pretty darn painful to me. Just because they stop moving doesn't mean they stop feeling pain.

The SN videos I've seen are very questionable. We don't know what they're going through because SN paralyses through hypoxia before killing. The reviews from some survivors on the forum often tell a story of desperate panic and regret. On the goodbye threads we take their silence after having drank it as evidence of a quick passing, but we don't really know how it plays out.

The body is a complex system designed to survive. You can't easily shut it down but you can make death look "peaceful".

Out of every method, it's definitely the quickest if not the least painful. My only fear is surviving it. I saw a video of a dude shooting himself, still living, and he had to walk all the way back to his shed just to get another bullet. Probably one of the most disturbing ones I saw only cause of the sheer willpower he had to walk right after shooting himself. I also saw a shotgun survivor and it the worse thing I've ever seen.

And this is pretty much my exact feelings on SN too, I wouldn't touch that stuff with a ten foot pole. I remember there was a goodbye thread that had someone saying their heartbeat was freaking them out and to try a different method.

When I was trying to find DSL I also encountered a lot of fake sites and people charging just to find the real link too. Fucked up people are taking advantage of vulnerable people like that and completely turned me off from the method. I'd rather give my money to Canadian Tire or a Gun shop before I die, not some asshole scammer.

i agree with this.
one of the things you have to make your peace with before dying is that:
1. more often than not, it'll be painful, uncomfortable or anxiety-inducing,
2. you might or might not regret it,
3. you might or might not be conscious as you die,
4. you'll never actually know until you're dying
it's a matter of going through with it (or not) while keeping in mind it's probably gonna suck at least a bit.

This was a hard truth to accept after browsing the forum for a while. Sucks there's no easy way out, but that millions of years of evolution for you I guess.