Want to go now

[Intelligent_Panic99]

I don't think I can wait another two months. It's just an arbitrary time I set so I can get everything in order. But I have everything set. A hotel room. A place for the dogs. Etc. I feel like I drain on the whole world every moment I stay but I want to stay alive. I just don't even see how that's possible.
I swear sometimes I think if one person who knew me said it was ok to stay alive I would listen.

 

[Well-Edited Chaos]

I'm sorry life has brought you to this painful place. But you've endured so much pain already, if you still feel that spark of life, that hunger to keep going, I think you have to listen to that. CTB or not is a decision you (usually) can't take back

And I know it's easy to say "just hang on" when you're in agony; I"m not just parroting some pro-life mantra. I do know how hard it is - I'm trying to tell myself the same thing. But for me to actually hang on requires outside help and big changes that I'm not sure I can make.

 

[FuneralCry]

I understand being desperate to leave and I know that it is hard to carry on when you suffer so much. This life really is so tiring and I'm sorry that it has come to this point for you. I wish you relief from suffering in whatever happens.