Venting Want to ctb so bad but proper rope not arriving for 7 days

[SummerDreamer]

I can't bare to live another week, but my benzos and rope are yet to arrive for at least another 7 days :(( how do I stop myself from impulsively trying to ctb? Every day just feels like an eternity and drawn-out torture. I could just get drunk and there's some ropes in my dads garage. I was thinking about just doing it tonight. But I know it's better to plan it even though it's so hard to wait :(

 

[Elbarado]

I dont have a proper answer to this.
Is there something that can distract you or persons in your life who care about you or you care about?

 

[Living sucks]

Why go thru the process at Pegasos if you can't wait? Why not try to get N or SN ? N Is less than $1500