want for nothing

[ryo the frog]

I feel the need to apologize for writing this in "stanzas". I tried writing it in paragraphs but I felt my point didn't really come across well. It was better to just write what came to my head. apparently my line of thinking is arbitrary lines of pessimism.
I also feel the need to apologize for how sloppy this is. though you shouldn't really expect a good text from "arbitrary lines of pessimism".



"do you want out of you situation"

"making your situation better"

"do you want to recover"

"do you like being depressed"



stuff along the lines above make me think

I don't know how to respond

I feel the need to say I'm not diagnosed as depressed nor do I think I am

but I'm not in tip top shape

while it's not neurodivergence (as in depression or anxiety) there is something wrong with me

but I'm not sure if I want to leave this state?

it could be better but I have no idea how



I guess the reason why I don't want to "get better" is because I don't even see a better… or something like that

the futures pretty bleak and existence is just pointless

I don't have any dreams

I don't see any future for myself

I see no point in living in general



the more I think about it the more it becomes less "I have no idea what I want in the future" and more "I want nothing in the future"

I'm really unmotivated towards everything

living just isn't for everyone

 

[Ginnn]

I don't know much about it, but it could be some type of "high functioning depression", feeling like that is not normal at all, I doubt that someone being a member here does not have any type of psycological condition. Anyways, some things have a name and others don't. Every mind is different. I wish you the best

 

[theboy]

More and more I am convinced that life is not for everyone, as it is for me. I hope you can sort your head a bit and see what options you have to improve yourself

 

[ryo the frog]

I don't know much about it, but it could be some type of "high functioning depression", feeling like that is not normal at all, I doubt that someone being a member here does not have any type of psycological condition. Anyways, some things have a name and others don't. Every mind is different. I wish you the best

send-too-much-time-alone-syndrome" perhaps? these thoughts are strongest when there's no one around to distract my thinking. either way I appreciate your compassion

More and more I am convinced that life is not for everyone, as it is for me. I hope you can sort your head a bit and see what options you have to improve yourself

thanks. my situation isn't as helpless as others so I try to harness that fact whenever my will lets me. I have indefinitely decided to postpone my suicide towards the distant future so there's that I guess.

 

[FuneralCry]

I agree that living is not for everyone. I believe that life is certainly not for me. There could never be anything here for me in this cruel world. I also believe that life is so pointless. I see no point to enduring this life when instead I could be peacefully not existing. I wish you the best in whatever happens.