Waking up to the same hell, same problems; emotionally overwhelmed and all I wanted to do was throw up! I had to work this morning so I got up and I really tried so hard but the tears wouldn't stop and I felt like I was going to puke! It was too much, I called off late. I figured I would be fired but my manager said I would be wrote up for all my call offs.
I guess I just want to say, it's so unfortunate that I couldn't pull it together and feel so alone. All I thought about this morning was should I try this again? If I don't get this right this time I will be in so much trouble, so I didn't. I grabbed the bottle of alcohol, a handful of pills and waiting to fall asleep.
My brother died a few weeks ago, I didn't go to the funeral. My daughter tried to stab me last week and she went to jail. Her trial is next week and I know this is the last time I will see her as I plan to walk away for good. I will ask the judge to drop her charges because I don't want to ruin her life with a record. All I want is to continue the restraining order for a few years and let her go. All I can do is ask, ultimately it's the judges decision. I never want to see her again! She's bipolar but that is no excuse for what she done.
If you made it this far, thank you for listening. Sometimes just having a safe space to be open is helpful. I will finish my cup if alcohol and fall asleep soon. I just need to sleep and relax. I won't linger in this, just needed to vent.
I guess I just want to say, it's so unfortunate that I couldn't pull it together and feel so alone. All I thought about this morning was should I try this again? If I don't get this right this time I will be in so much trouble, so I didn't. I grabbed the bottle of alcohol, a handful of pills and waiting to fall asleep.
My brother died a few weeks ago, I didn't go to the funeral. My daughter tried to stab me last week and she went to jail. Her trial is next week and I know this is the last time I will see her as I plan to walk away for good. I will ask the judge to drop her charges because I don't want to ruin her life with a record. All I want is to continue the restraining order for a few years and let her go. All I can do is ask, ultimately it's the judges decision. I never want to see her again! She's bipolar but that is no excuse for what she done.
If you made it this far, thank you for listening. Sometimes just having a safe space to be open is helpful. I will finish my cup if alcohol and fall asleep soon. I just need to sleep and relax. I won't linger in this, just needed to vent.
