Venting Am i a asshole for blowing up on my ex?

[NyxCascade]

She recently ended it cuz i attempted to log in her accounts cuz i was suspicious of cheating cuz she ignored me for 2 days straight and on Sunday night she hits me with a we need to break up so i lost it and called her a fat ugly bitch but i instantly regretted it and tried to apologize and begged her to talk to me. Then yesterday she contacts me saying shes scared so like anyone would do i stayed and checked up on her and we texted for a bit then after she got better she instantly blocks me everywhere and i lwk threatened to cbt.
Now she acts like she cares but then instantly blocks me 2 seconds later. So idk what to do and do i really deserve being treated like this?

 

[Secro]

You insulted her and took yourself hostage.
Think about it a little, I think you'll figure it out yourself.

 

[NyxCascade]

You insulted her and took yourself hostage.
Think about it a little, I think you'll figure it out yourself.

This like only half of the story the thing i dont get is she insults me everyday "jokingly" and ive been the only looking out for her and helping with her mental issues.

This like only half of the story the thing i dont get is she insults me everyday "jokingly" and ive been the only looking out for her and helping with her mental issues.

The only reason she messaged me cuz she tried to cbt and i felt bad till she blocked me again and it instantly felt like her guilt tripping me

This like only half of the story the thing i dont get is she insults me everyday "jokingly" and ive been the only looking out for her and helping with her mental issues.

The only reason she messaged me cuz she tried to cbt and i felt bad till she blocked me again and it instantly felt like her guilt tripping me

And i understand what i said was wrong and what i did was fair but what she did is nothing compared to what i did. You just don't ignore someone you say you love for 2 days straight then hit them with a break up with 0 reasoning. Then she has the audacity to tell me im toxic after she msd me leave my friends and made me do shit for her cuz if i didnt she always threatened cbt so wtf. I dont need to think about what i did cuz i did and regret it

 

[Secro]

This like only half of the story the thing i dont get is she insults me everyday "jokingly" and ive been the only looking out for her and helping with her mental issues.

The only reason she messaged me cuz she tried to cbt and i felt bad till she blocked me again and it instantly felt like her guilt tripping me

You left out quite a lot, so I'd say you both have problems.

 

[NyxCascade]

You left out quite a lot, so I'd say you both have problems.

Yea i know. I just dont understand how she can do that to me after all i sacrificed.

 

[Secro]

Yea i know. I just dont understand how she can do that to me after all i sacrificed.

Only she knows that; you and I can only speculate.