Venting Waiting

[erdbeeren]

I was intent on ctb two days ago, but backed out at the last minute. Why must I be like this??

Been suicidal since age 9 and it's a miracle (or curse) that I'm still alive to this day. I actually had some hope for things to get better one day, but much of it was just wishful thinking.

I know I'll do it one day. Likely one in the near future. Just a few more things need to be in order, then I'll return to peace.

 

[FuneralCry]

I wish you the best in whatever you decide to do. Peace is all I want as well, I am tired of suffering. I know that it is dreadful when everything is hopeless.