I have 4 hours before the train comes. I dunno how to psych myself up to do this. Haven't eaten today. Just waiting.
-
Hey Guest,
We wanted to share a quick update with the community.
Our public expense ledger is now live, allowing anyone to see how donations are used to support the ongoing operation of the site.
👉 View the ledger hereOver the past year, increased regulatory pressure in multiple regions like UK OFCOM and Australia's eSafety has led to higher operational costs, including infrastructure, security, and the need to work with more specialized service providers to keep the site online and stable.
If you value the community and would like to help support its continued operation, donations are greatly appreciated. If you wish to donate via Bank Transfer or other options, please open a ticket.
Donate via cryptocurrency:
Bitcoin (BTC):Ethereum (ETH):Monero (XMR):
falloutcarter13
Bury me, bury me...
- Aug 1, 2020
- 671
Is trainjumping your choice, or is it just your only option (you feel?) No judgment...I just can't help cringing when I see one of these, but its not for me to judge. Any way you go, whenever you go, I hope you find the peace you seek.
unloved
Member
- Jul 6, 2020
- 5
Only option. SN will take 5 weeks to come and I don't have any of the of the other meds for it. Don't have pressure gauge for N. Family always at home now but I have no idea how to do full suspension anyway. I feel backed into a corner. And I dunno if I can pull through with train anyway.
At first I mistakenly read "4 hours before the bus comes" and assumed you were using the familiar metaphor, and would be taking sn or something.
Then read the post by falloutcarter and realized you said 'train' and are contemplating that method...
Is that really the only option you have left? :(
Edit: just read your post above, sorry. Do you feel that this is something that definitely cannot wait? The other meds for sn are not strictly necessary. Not trying to tell you to do sn or anything, I'm just saying.Last edited:
Yes someone to chat to might be good. Thanks
unloved
Member
- Jul 6, 2020
- 5
I don't know how to send DM's but do you want to call on the phone? Or do you just want to chat here?
Morphosis
Experienced
- Sep 22, 2019
- 260
My heart goes out to anyone desperate enough to consider ctb by train. I mean obviously everyone about to ctb is prob feeling desperate to some degree, but to choose this particular method.....
A lot of people will argue it's unfair and traumatic to the driver, and I agree. BUT... I also think it takes balls the size of watermelons to actually stand there and face an oncoming train. Ethical issues re: the driver notwithstanding, I have to confess I admire that level of courage as it's not something I possess. I would quite literally sh*t myself at the first sight or sound of that thing chugging along towards me.
Personally I would much rather drift off in a blissful morphine or fentanyl-induced haze, but you did say other methods aren't available to you.
I'm so sorry you're at this point. Sending you a hug for what it's worth
Similar threads
