VERY ALONE

[StarryStarry]

I feel so alone. More alone than I've felt in a long time. I' ve been alone for most of my life, but today it seems to have hit me. I am alone - no one knows I exist. So overwhelmed, unsure, confused. I'm trying so hard to hang in but it's getting harder and harder. I wish I had someone in my life someone who understands me and accepts me for who I am.

 

[Wrennie]

If you're ever feeling lonely or need someone to talk to/vent your struggles, I'll always lend an ear. I know it's far-removed from an ideal solution, and realistically I cannot do anything to remedy the life circumstances that drove you to this point, but sometimes it helps to know that you aren't as alone as you may feel.

All of us, we're suffering. There are many layers and variations to suffering - no one-size fits all. In that regard, since our suffering is so "individualized", sometimes it can feel even more isolating when you conclude that your specific brand of suffering differs from the more "common" forms (at least, that's how I often feel).

Regardless, I'm thinking of you. Your story has touched and broken my heart, and I truly wish you nothing but the best. Nobody deserves to feel alone. Nobody deserves to be driven into such an inescapable corner that they entertain death. It's not you that's to blame - I am of the belief that it's this barbaric, primitive society that enables and facilitates abuse of all forms that is the root cause of everything.

 

[StarryStarry]

If you're ever feeling lonely or need someone to talk to/vent your struggles, I'll always lend an ear. I know it's far-removed from an ideal solution, and realistically I cannot do anything to remedy the life circumstances that drove you to this point, but sometimes it helps to know that you aren't as alone as you may feel. All of us, we're suffering. There are many layers and variations to suffering - no one-size fits all. In that regard, since our suffering is so "individualized", sometimes it can feel even more isolating when you conclude that your specific brand of suffering differs from the more "common" forms (at least, that's how I often feel).

Regardless, I'm thinking of you. Your story has touched and broken my heart, and I truly wish you nothing but the best. Nobody deserves to feel alone. Nobody deserves to be driven into such an inescapable corner that they entertain death. It's not you that's to blame - I am of the belief that it's this barbaric, primitive society that enables and facilitates abuse of all forms that is the root cause of everything.

Thank you so much for responding in such a kind way. I'm just a mess.

 

[Wrennie]

Thank you so much for responding in such a kind way. I'm just a mess.

Getting through the days, after everything you've gone through, takes immense strength of will. Even though you may feel like a mess, the fact that you're still here is testament to your strength and resilience.

That said, you shouldn't have to feel strong. I know a lot of people (myself included) mean well when they use the terms like "strong" or "survivor", but I can also see how constantly hearing that may take a toll on the person whom they're referring to.

Nobody wants to be forced to be "strong" 24/7. Even bodybuilders get to take a break (and for them it's voluntary). But for many of us it's a constant involuntary onslaught of pain (be it physical, mental, a mix of both/multitudes of other factors) and whatever means we use to try to help "mask" it either backfires or amplifies it. There's no respite, no escape route.

I wish I had some advice I could give you. Something that was guaranteed to enable you to lead a happy life. I personally know of nothing (hence one of many reasons why I'm in this predicament myself) but if I did I wouldn't hesitate to inform you.

Much love. Warm digital hugs.

 

[Sherri]

I feel so alone. More alone than I've felt in a long time. I' ve been alone for most of my life, but today it seems to have hit me. I am alone - no one knows I exist. So overwhelmed, unsure, confused. I'm trying so hard to hang in but it's getting harder and harder. I wish I had someone in my life someone who understands me and accepts me for who I am.

Hello, I'm so sorry you feel so alone, hope our company eases your loneliness a bit. If you ever need to talk I'm here for you. A big hug.

 

[Angi]

You are not alone, Starry, or at least not isolated. You have touched my heart today. Thank you so much!

I sit in the boat you just described with you. I wish I could help you, but I have not figuered out a way out of here. I send you kindness and a hug though, maybe this helps some?

 

[FuneralCry]

I know that loneliness can be very painful for a lot of people, I'm sorry you are going through this. I know that it is hard to carry on when you are suffering so much, living a miserable existence can be dreadful. I wish you the best.

 

[avoid_slow_death]

Ah, the old existentialist dread rears it's head once again. I feel you on this though. Spent a vast majority of my life bouncing around from place to place and person to person trying to find some grouding and solace myself. But people come and go sadly. At least for myself.

That said, I definitely feel where you are coming from. I always am surrounded by people I can talk to, but it is extremely rare that I can relate to most on more than a surface level. Regardless, I do try nonetheless.

Also, if ever you just want to vent or expound on a subject, I can listen and perhaps offer insight or a laugh or two. Despite a lot of my serious posts and replies here, I am actually pretty goofy and random one on one. You take care OP and realize that you are not truly alone. Not here anyways.

 

[UpandDownPrincess]

We hear you. We know.