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keiangel1

loser lol
Feb 19, 2026
17
I spiraled really badly a few hours ago and was going to try to ctb by taking an entire bottle of tylenol but then stopped cause I was scared of liver failure which is so fucking funny cause wdym I want to die but liver failure is where I draw the line
 
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TheFinalStraw89

New Member
May 13, 2026
1
Can relate. Wanting to die so, so badly, but being afraid to die, or afraid of consequences around trying. I'm sure the psych read would be you aren't ready to die, or know the odds of that method aren't in your favor. The old 'its not that you want to die, but that you don't want to go through the pain anymore' trope.

I've been wanting to CTB for now the majority of my life, have a gun, want to use it, but still deeply uncomfortable with pointing the gun, even empty, at myself.
 
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isthisthingon

Arcanist
May 16, 2026
446
Can relate. Wanting to die so, so badly, but being afraid to die, or afraid of consequences around trying. I'm sure the psych read would be you aren't ready to die, or know the odds of that method aren't in your favor. The old 'its not that you want to die, but that you don't want to go through the pain anymore' trope.

I've been wanting to CTB for now the majority of my life, have a gun, want to use it, but still deeply uncomfortable with pointing the gun, even empty, at myself.
Can I borrow your gun?
 

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