Urgent: Where to hang self

[Spiny Lobster]

I'm sorry I keep making all these threads! I am just desperate. Where can I go to hang myself/what could I hang myself from other than the door knob at home? I don't want to upset my family more than I have to.

 

[Nymph]

The wardrobe pole that holds the hangers, a tree in a forest

 

[Spiny Lobster]

The wardrobe pole that holds the hangers, a tree in a forest

My rope isn't long enough for a tree. Is there anything outdoors I can hang from with a short rope?

 

[thx1138]

Shower curtain railing, stairs railing, a tree, a ceiling beam... If you don't want to upset them maybe put something over your head? Idk maybe this sounds very stupid, but that's what I was going to do when I tried to hang myself.

 

[SoIntoYou]

Just don't do it from a doorknob. That shit is actually a murder made to look like a suicide.

 

[Lilmeowssi]

I'm sorry I keep making all these threads! I am just desperate. Where can I go to hang myself/what could I hang myself from other than the door knob at home? I don't want to upset my family more than I have to.

For full suspension maybe a bridge would work?

 

[Spiny Lobster]

For full suspension maybe a bridge would work?

Just don't do it from a doorknob. That shit is actually a murder made to look like a suicide.

I can't because my rope is too short. I just practiced with the door knob but to be completely honest, I was terrified. Fuck.

In an ideal world, I'd either have a gun or never have been born in the first place, but here I am.

 

[Soul]

@Spiny Lobster, are you saying you want to go somewhere away from your home to use partial suspension?

I'm sorry you're scared. Could it be that this is not the time and not the method for you?

 

[Spiny Lobster]

@Spiny Lobster, are you saying you want to go somewhere away from your home to use partial suspension?

I'm sorry you're scared. Could it be that this is not the time and not the method for you?

Yes, since home is not the ideal place to do these things. At the same time, it's more effective to do it at home.

I don't know, man. I don't want to live, that's for sure. But I'm almost too scared to die? Like, why couldn't I have not been born in the first place? Why do I have to struggle every day in the body I have? Why couldn't I have literally been anyone else?

Urgh, I can't think straight. I've been flipflopping on all my methods and places to do such methods. I need a place for my head but it ain't here. I've thought about going to a hospital, but I truly don't want to face anyone ever again after this because the humiliation and shame is unbearable.

 

[airboy_a380]

sorry but I dont think you're ready to CTb, you sound very confused. You don't need to do this if you aren't ready. Sending you hugs.

 

[Spiny Lobster]

sorry but I dont think you're ready to CTb, you sound very confused. You don't need to do this if you aren't ready. Sending you hugs.

I'm sorry. Yes, I am very confused.

If not now, then when? I feel like rotting meat that I'm trying to shove into the freezer to extend its life. Living just isn't sustainable for me at this point.

 

[Nolove4me]

Hanging yourself is pretty tricky and brutal I have been strangled like that and it's not a feeling I'd wish for anyone and your family won't be able to see you. Have you thought about exit bag? It's very fast peaceful and clean you look like you fell asleep and you would only need hours of privacy

 

[TimeToBiteTheDust]

The wardrobe pole that holds the hangers

I'm thinking on hanging from there too.

 

[Morphosis]

Urgh, I can't think straight. I've been flipflopping on all my methods and places to do such methods. I need a place for my head but it ain't here. I've thought about going to a hospital, but I truly don't want to face anyone ever again after this because the humiliation and shame is unbearable.

This is when you're more likely to act on impulse, make mistakes and possibly end up in a worse position than you are now.
I read something when I was in hospital a while back titled "Don't die of embarrassment"; in other words don't kill yourself or avoid getting help because of humiliation or shame. It resonated with me, I know what it's like to want the ground to open up and swallow you and never face anyone ever again.
But it sounds in your case that help from crisis teams etc might not be an entirely lost cause. It might be worth talking to them, if nothing helps you can always plan to ctb at a later date when you are sure of what you want and have chosen and researched a method that isn't quite so scary for you

 

[schopenh]

Sorry I didn't read the entire thread. So you may have reached a conclusion. But you could find some form of abandonned warehouse/building which has no security and tying your rope on a sturdy steel beam.

 

[TimeToBiteTheDust]

Please don't act impulsively You don't want to end up veggie

 

[Spiny Lobster]

Update: I turned myself into the hospital... Not sure what will happen to me in the long run, but thanks for the support.

 

[voyager (D)]

@Spiny Lobster: Wishing you all the best. Maybe there are other solutions than killing yourself.

 

[Morphosis]

Update: I turned myself into the hospital... Not sure what will happen to me in the long run, but thanks for the support.

I think that was a brave decision and good choice considering how you were feeling. I just hope the medical world do their job for once and don't let you down, and actually do something to help