urge to confide in friends/family

[endoftheroad22]

Do any of you struggle with the urge to confide in friends/family about your emotional/physical pain that makes you want to CTB?

I have talked to some people, but I know they can't help and in the end it just overburdens people and makes my relationships worse. Despite all of this, I still find myself yearning to talk to them about what I am going through.

 

[Squiddy]

Sometimes, I wanna talk to them, but when I do, they either don't understand or invalidate my pain

 

[VIBRITANNIA]

i've had friends tell me "i'm always here if you need to talk", and sometimes, i really do contemplate venting to them.
i avoid it as best as i can, though, because i'm not really a fan of being vulnerable. the less people see of the true me, the better. i do miss having a friend to confide in, but i'd rather die than be vulnerable again. it's only hurt both me and the ones i cared about.

 

[Blueman]

This is so difficult
Having got to 55 with just a brief down period when my Dad died 20 years ago my friends/family are finding it hard to understand the way I've been the last 3 months and that's just depression.
I've touched on CTB as a possible option with Mum and sister but they can't grasp I'm that low and I regret saying it.

 

[lostangel]

I feel where you're coming from. Thought like that pop in my head at times but I always remember that they will never get it. So I keep it to myself

 

[BPD Barbie]

I often have the urge but I remember the times that I have reached out to people and they have always been too busy or shit like that.