Story Update on my plans

[kingfool316]

hey everybody. Been a while. I had plans to CTB a month ago, but as i said something happened that postponed it. Then I found a new spot, but thought to myself it was just not right despite it checking all criterias in my list. It was just that I want the last thing I see would be a grand view of nature. So while waiting for my original spot to be maintenance free, I meditated, watched old animes i loved, finished many old games again, went nature sight seeing. Boy those were my only happy thoughts before life shits on me everyday and my mental health is not getting any better due to brain damage. But right now, the spot is free. I am again getting over eveything i need to do to overcome the fear of death.

So... I plan to end it all before July. There are many personal and pragmatic reasons for this. So to help myself overcome the fear of death, I will try to post as much as I can, be as miserable as i can (not much of a challenge when life does 90% of the work), and just plan the last rites for myself. Just wanna get this out of my chest

 

[FuneralCry]

I wish you the best in plans, I hope that you find the relief you search for.

 

[kingfool316]

Hello everybody.

Just posting right now to say I am feeling very miserable. even playing my games aren't enough to distract me. when i look at my noose, my neck feels hard, my breathe caught in my throat, and my stomach feels heavy. I can feel it. I am walking towards death's door