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yxmux

yxmux

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Apr 16, 2024
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For context, I live with my parents and younger sister. I withdrew $100 from my checking account and put it on my Cash App so I would be able to purchase SN without it showing on a credit report that my parents are able to access. I "have" a credit card but it's linked to my mother's checking account (don't ask why; it's not important for what I'm asking).

My problem is being able to order the package of SN and physically obtaining it confidentially. I'm not one to order packages online, so even discreet packaging would probably look odd or suspicious. They would likely either grow paranoid (especially my father who has made it clear that he's worried about me CTBing) and either open the package or notice that there's nothing new visible in my room. I'd have to obtain the SN without them knowing I ordered something. Ideally, I would be able to set the exact time, date, and location around the outside of the house, but I'm unsure if I'm able to do that.

Also, getting any prescription drugs, noticably dopamine receptor antagonists and benzodiazepines, is going to be virtually impossible without ordering from a gray market/black market and will have the same issues in obtaining them.

Any advice is appreciated.
 
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serkankomskaikru

serkankomskaikru

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For context, I live with my parents and younger sister. I withdrew $100 from my checking account and put it on my Cash App so I would be able to purchase SN without it showing on a credit report that my parents are able to access. I "have" a credit card but it's linked to my mother's checking account (don't ask why; it's not important for what I'm asking).

My problem is being able to order the package of SN and physically obtaining it confidentially. I'm not one to order packages online, so even discreet packaging would probably look odd or suspicious. They would likely either grow paranoid (especially my father who has made it clear that he's worried about me CTBing) and either open the package or notice that there's nothing new visible in my room. I'd have to obtain the SN without them knowing I ordered something. Ideally, I would be able to set the exact time, date, and location around the outside of the house, but I'm unsure if I'm able to do that.

Also, getting any prescription drugs, noticably dopamine receptor antagonists and benzodiazepines, is going to be virtually impossible without ordering from a gray market/black market and will have the same issues in obtaining them.

Any advice is appreciated.
I obtained my SN by simply putting warehouse address instead of my house. Otherwise my mom could open it. I store in my safe. Maybe try empty boxes (PC case, headset etc.)
 
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permanently tired

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If you can afford it, you could rent a PO box
 
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KillingPain267

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Yeah, same problem. I finally moved out to my own adress, so now I can order stuff without my stupid family asking.
 
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dinosavr

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Of course it depends on where you live but usually you can order your package to a pickup point.
 
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yxmux

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I obtained my SN by simply putting warehouse address instead of my house. Otherwise my mom could open it. I store in my safe. Maybe try empty boxes (PC case, headset etc.)
Really appreciate this idea. I'll consider doing this.
 
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For context, I live with my parents and younger sister. I withdrew $100 from my checking account and put it on my Cash App so I would be able to purchase SN without it showing on a credit report that my parents are able to access. I "have" a credit card but it's linked to my mother's checking account (don't ask why; it's not important for what I'm asking).

My problem is being able to order the package of SN and physically obtaining it confidentially. I'm not one to order packages online, so even discreet packaging would probably look odd or suspicious. They would likely either grow paranoid (especially my father who has made it clear that he's worried about me CTBing) and either open the package or notice that there's nothing new visible in my room. I'd have to obtain the SN without them knowing I ordered something. Ideally, I would be able to set the exact time, date, and location around the outside of the house, but I'm unsure if I'm able to do that.

Also, getting any prescription drugs, noticably dopamine receptor antagonists and benzodiazepines, is going to be virtually impossible without ordering from a gray market/black market and will have the same issues in obtaining them.

Any advice is appreciated.
You can set up a post office etc to hold your package, PO Box is also an option.
Where can you get sodium nitrite
No one can source you in threads. Read threads on it, look at the seller acronyms, use an encrypted browser to search to filter results less, search for the chemical name, search in other languages, Germany, poland, Spain.
 
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