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hypnoticpoisoned

hypnoticpoisoned

Magnolia Electric Co.
Jan 10, 2026
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I had a life, but now it's like everything has evaporated up into the air. I had idiosyncrasies & little preoccupations, the things I wnjoy about other people. I have a kind of ambiguated love for human beings & therefore had myself, but I can't find those things in me anymore, they are gone. My day to day is shapeless. I appreciate nothing, & don't think anything. Derealized. Y'know. Unpersoned

Here's to May 21st! This is the only thing that feels real to me.
 
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DownwardSpiral

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Jan 21, 2026
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i feel similar. Almost everything I say or do goes unheard and unseen, straight into the meaningless void like it never mattered in the first place. My efforts to recover and build a support system are all in vain. Without connection or purpose, I'm essentially not a human anymore, just a husk. I'm glad you have closure to look forward to at least.
 
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