Venting tylenol thursday!

[DewDr0p]

disclaimer: yes i know paracetamol wont kill me, just humiliate me. it is more of an elaborate act of self harm.

i spent this afternoon with friends and uh. yeah. so sorry to them but i need to suffer. the only reason i could spend the time with them was because i had done some cutting on my thighs and the rubbing of my jeans against the cuts was enough to ground me a little. as much as i enjoyed the conversations and planning, a lot of it felt so... performative? they are understanding that ive been kind of depressed recently and vanished off the face of the earth, they all have their struggles too. and i feel bad but. ive accepted it. the idea of not poisoning myself tomorrow genuinely fills me with so much despair. i cant. i have to do it.

so on thursday morning, whenever i wake up, hopefully early, around 6am, ill take at least 16g of paracetamol. then ill go do some responsibilities. then ill probs take around 160mg of excitalopram if i dont feel unwell enough. then ill wait another hour or two, as punishment, of course. then bus to the hopital. im so evil, this is so silly of me hahahahahahahahhahahahahahaha.

 

[carfemtanyl]

there are better ways to self harm that don't involve nuking your liver permanently
if you really wanna end in the hospital with a lower chance of fucking up your body, you can just take the 160mg of escitalopram
maybe read up on serotonin syndrome to know what you'll be getting yourself into

 

[ThisPartySucks]

there are better ways to self harm that don't involve nuking your liver permanently
if you really wanna end in the hospital with a lower chance of fucking up your body, you can just take the 160mg of escitalopram
maybe read up on serotonin syndrome to know what you'll be getting yourself into

are we encouraging non-methods now?

 

[(UN)COMMON SENSE]

agonizing liver failure then, and when you inevitably seek treatment from the extreme, horrific pain you will certainly be the last to recieve a transplant since you can't possibly be trusted with a perfectly good functioning one.

 

[auti]

Hi I did something similar to this last year and you really need to make sure that you're okay with the severe damage you could get. I took hydroxyzine and propranolol (not a lethal dose) and not only was it horribly traumatic but it fucked me up real good too. I had a seizure and my brain literally hasn't functioned properly since. I was only in ICU for one week but I felt ill for weeks after and I'm still not fully recovered more than a year later. It made my situation a lot worse as it caused my physical disability to progress. If you are really set on hurting yourself in this way please consider a smaller dose. Even a small Tylenol overdose is said to be very bad and quite painful.

 

[fadedghost]

this is massively stupid and a terrible idea. it's not going to be like self-harm with cutting.

if you get help in time, you may not have liver failure. if you have liver failure, you may not get a transplant, and if you do get a transplant, you may take it from someone else

It's not like just mildly painful, you'll be screaming in pain, you'll throw up and damage property not belonging to you, the vomit will get everywhere, you'll probably shit yourself, you'll get involuntarily hospitalized after if you don't die

it will also waste hundreds of thousands in ER expenses. while resources are devoted to trying to block the liver damage, someone else in the ER could die from not being attended to

if you feel that bad, just walk into the ER and say "I'm going to commit suicide today if I am not admitted to involuntary care. I have a method of poisoning and was going to just do it and see what happened, but some asshole on the internet told me to just go into an ER so here I am."

People do sometimes die from that method too, it's incredibly painful. I'm not going to look up the LD50 because it's a terrible idea, but I have no idea if you're over the LD50 or under it, it's just a horrible idea. If you want help, go walk into an ER. They are required to treat you.

 

[name2come]

disclaimer: yes i know paracetamol wont kill me, just humiliate me. it is more of an elaborate act of self harm.

i spent this afternoon with friends and uh. yeah. so sorry to them but i need to suffer. the only reason i could spend the time with them was because i had done some cutting on my thighs and the rubbing of my jeans against the cuts was enough to ground me a little. as much as i enjoyed the conversations and planning, a lot of it felt so... performative? they are understanding that ive been kind of depressed recently and vanished off the face of the earth, they all have their struggles too. and i feel bad but. ive accepted it. the idea of not poisoning myself tomorrow genuinely fills me with so much despair. i cant. i have to do it.

so on thursday morning, whenever i wake up, hopefully early, around 6am, ill take at least 16g of paracetamol. then ill go do some responsibilities. then ill probs take around 160mg of excitalopram if i dont feel unwell enough. then ill wait another hour or two, as punishment, of course. then bus to the hopital. im so evil, this is so silly of me hahahahahahahahhahahahahahaha.

Please reconsider. I know self-harm inherently results in destructive behavior, but this is a different kind of destruction. This isn't a punishment. Its not even a poison, really. You are going to risk permanent disability. That's something you'll have to live with and that's the real problem here. There is a world of difference between self-harm scars and a non-functioning liver or the damage from seizures or comas. This isn't a cry for help, its just useless destruction. It won't bring you what you are looking for. It won't even bring the suffering you think you deserve, it is something else entirely.

 

[fadedghost]

yes i know paracetamol wont kill me

that is not a guarantee

 

[MatiSendiri]

disclaimer: yes i know paracetamol wont kill me, just humiliate me. it is more of an elaborate act of self harm.

i spent this afternoon with friends and uh. yeah. so sorry to them but i need to suffer. the only reason i could spend the time with them was because i had done some cutting on my thighs and the rubbing of my jeans against the cuts was enough to ground me a little. as much as i enjoyed the conversations and planning, a lot of it felt so... performative? they are understanding that ive been kind of depressed recently and vanished off the face of the earth, they all have their struggles too. and i feel bad but. ive accepted it. the idea of not poisoning myself tomorrow genuinely fills me with so much despair. i cant. i have to do it.

so on thursday morning, whenever i wake up, hopefully early, around 6am, ill take at least 16g of paracetamol. then ill go do some responsibilities. then ill probs take around 160mg of excitalopram if i dont feel unwell enough. then ill wait another hour or two, as punishment, of course. then bus to the hopital. im so evil, this is so silly of me hahahahahahahahhahahahahahaha.

Anything will kill you if it's large enough doses. But paracetamol? Come on mate. Liver damages aren't fucking worth it.

 

[carfemtanyl]

are we encouraging non-methods now?

I'm not encouraging a non-method, I'm just saying that if they really wanna do either of those things, they should do the one that is less likely to fuck them up permanently
that's why I also linked to the serotonin syndrome article so they can get a feeling for why this is a stupid idea