masking
not here for long
- Jun 1, 2026
- 4
i have my tied rope and im aiming to die by nextt week
the erratic mood swings are really true my mentall state seems to be struggling with knowing that i am going to die. it's the best option for me though. i want to try death.
it weirdly reminds me of that one Nazi experiment when the scientist told the women when they'd die to study their menopause cycles (something like that).
i have one more thing i want to finish maybe two but im currently struggling to get through the first one but it's almsot done i aim to finish it by next week. crying has sucked. i might post my FSH/PSH setup later as im not sure which one i want to do right now .
the second thing i might get to is making a face covering mask . i dont want the person that finds me to see my eyes or tongue. i guess ive just been inspired by aztec sacrifices in a regard. I have a 5 oz bottle of Delsym, weed and gabapentin t to take when i make my attempt . not the best but its what i got to make it easier,,, sadly ill be breaking my sobriety in my attempt. sober for 5 months atm. it was ironic as my life aas more functional when i was a raging drugee. i had A job. My life is over i've lost everytihng.
also, Deltarune chapter 5 has a release date, I want to play it but I know I can't be around for chapters 6 and 7. fucking sucked. sorry for the shitty grammar i feel nothing right now and have been crying all day. i jus twant this to be over. Wh y did it have to come out right before I die????????
also does anyone know what to do about shitting myself during the hanging attmept? I know it can happen and i assume i cant just use the bathroom b4hand... i knowits not a 'dignifynign" way to die but i wanna make it a slgihtly more pleasant sight
the erratic mood swings are really true my mentall state seems to be struggling with knowing that i am going to die. it's the best option for me though. i want to try death.
it weirdly reminds me of that one Nazi experiment when the scientist told the women when they'd die to study their menopause cycles (something like that).
i have one more thing i want to finish maybe two but im currently struggling to get through the first one but it's almsot done i aim to finish it by next week. crying has sucked. i might post my FSH/PSH setup later as im not sure which one i want to do right now .
the second thing i might get to is making a face covering mask . i dont want the person that finds me to see my eyes or tongue. i guess ive just been inspired by aztec sacrifices in a regard. I have a 5 oz bottle of Delsym, weed and gabapentin t to take when i make my attempt . not the best but its what i got to make it easier,,, sadly ill be breaking my sobriety in my attempt. sober for 5 months atm. it was ironic as my life aas more functional when i was a raging drugee. i had A job. My life is over i've lost everytihng.
also, Deltarune chapter 5 has a release date, I want to play it but I know I can't be around for chapters 6 and 7. fucking sucked. sorry for the shitty grammar i feel nothing right now and have been crying all day. i jus twant this to be over. Wh y did it have to come out right before I die????????
also does anyone know what to do about shitting myself during the hanging attmept? I know it can happen and i assume i cant just use the bathroom b4hand... i knowits not a 'dignifynign" way to die but i wanna make it a slgihtly more pleasant sight
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