totally neglecting my body because it will soon be dead

[sadbadpsychogirl]

so since i know i will die some time in the future i have just completely let myself go. i am over eating getting pretty big, picking the shit out of my skin, leaving scars, not getting my fucked up tattoos fixed... anyone else feel this way?

 

[WornOutLife]

I can relate. Last year I got like 30 extra pounds because I thought I was gonna ctb.
Unfortunately, I failed and now I'm trying to work my ass off so as to lose weight lol

 

[EmbraceOfTheVoid]

Same, I've been eating loads of junk food like candy, fast food, and chips because I have no intention of staying alive. I haven't gained any weight but I have gained body fat which is pretty bad too. I spent like $500 this past July on fast food in a month because I was planning on ending it then, lol.

 

[esoterispeec]

Feel the same.

 

[summers]

Oddly enough, I'm going the complete opposite direction. I want to be in the best physical shape of my life when I ctb. To each their own, but like @WornOutLife said, if you change your mind, you're going to have to work to get back to where you were.

 

[sadbadpsychogirl]

Same, I've been eating loads of junk food like candy, fast food, and chips because I have no intention of staying alive. I haven't gained any weight but I have gained body fat which is pretty bad too. I spent like $500 this past July on fast food in a month because I was planning on ending it then, lol.

yeah i spend way too much money on junk food

 

[BeansOfRequirement]

Eating well and hard workouts are the only thing that can reduce the enormous suffering that lacking a gf entails, in combination with meditation it might be able to remove it completely. I'm so glad that my parents fucked without a rubber, thank you for this amazing gift!

 

[sadbadpsychogirl]

i have also been smoking a lot, not sleeping well, not showering or brushing my teeth very often... i kinda feel dead already

 

[reticen]

A little bit, though it's probably more due to Covid and working from home. No need to shower, shave, and brush teeth for professional appearance.

 

[Makko]

A little bit, though it's probably more due to Covid and working from home. No need to shower, shave, and brush teeth for professional appearance.

All the homesitting does promote an excessive relaxation of etiquette. If I'm sitting at home I can have digital client meetings with hair and makeup undone, everyone is becoming more and more like this. Just a year ago this would be unthinkable. Last week during a meeting in the morning I went all-in like that famous news reporter and didn't bother to put pants on.

Even in public spaces people seem more slobby, overall. I'm wondering if it'll be hard to go back to being tidy with yourself after proper public life becomes a thing again.

 

[sadbadpsychogirl]

Oddly enough, I'm going the complete opposite direction. I want to be in the best physical shape of my life when I ctb. To each their own, but like @WornOutLife said, if you change your mind, you're going to have to work to get back to where you were.

oh this is a definite no going back for me...

 

[nasblue]

so since i know i will die some time in the future i have just completely let myself go. i am over eating getting pretty big, picking the shit out of my skin, leaving scars, not getting my fucked up tattoos fixed... anyone else feel this way?

Absolutely.
Although in my case, being crippled was what made me suicidal in the first place, leading to further neglect and decay of my body.
I used to do powerlifting but nothing helps to overcome the transient nature of physicality. I'm actually glad to have been taught this lesson but not being in chronic pain would still be sick.