Tonight's the night

[kittybangbang]

I hope this is it. I think I worked out the kinks in my plan. So if all goes well, I'll be gone by morning. I'm feeling every emotion possible right now, but still somehow numb at the same time. My letters are done, I even wrote a little "last wishes" thing. I also showered, picked out the dress I wanna "go out" in. This all feels so performative. Or like I'm being dramatic. I don't know.

Anyways....in about 6 hours I'll be taking some muscle relaxers to calm me down and 30 minutes after that is showtime. Hopefully this is the last time you all hear from me. I wish you all peace and happiness



Edit: I was so fucking close. It was working! I did a partial hanging. Things were going black and I fucking panicked. Forgot that pissing yourself happens with this method. So now I need a shower and I have rope burns all over my neck and my stomach/sides are aching... probably from my panicking and trying to pull myself up. I'm so tired.

 

[Forveleth]

I hope you find the peace you are looking for.

 

[Steph99]

Seems all a bit rushed? I wonder if it's worth staying on the forum for awhile, chat to people in similar circumstances etc? CTB can be done anytime, there's no hurry.

 

[ctb_warrior]

I hope this is it. I think I worked out the kinks in my plan. So if all goes well, I'll be gone by morning. I'm feeling every emotion possible right now, but still somehow numb at the same time. My letters are done, I even wrote a little "last wishes" thing. I also showered, picked out the dress I wanna "go out" in. This all feels so performative. Or like I'm being dramatic. I don't know.

Anyways....in about 6 hours I'll be taking some muscle relaxers to calm me down and 30 minutes after that is showtime. Hopefully this is the last time you all hear from me. I wish you all peace and happiness

Wish you love luck and peace dear

 

[leowantstobedead]

How are u gonna do it?

 

[Le temps perdu]

I hope you find peace, wish you luck

 

[darksouls]

thank you for your kind words,
I wish you the best, I hope you find the peace you desire

 

[pk@2001]

Wishing you peace
But can I ask u, what led you to this???

 

[autopzyc]

I hope this is it. I think I worked out the kinks in my plan. So if all goes well, I'll be gone by morning. I'm feeling every emotion possible right now, but still somehow numb at the same time. My letters are done, I even wrote a little "last wishes" thing. I also showered, picked out the dress I wanna "go out" in. This all feels so performative. Or like I'm being dramatic. I don't know.

Anyways....in about 6 hours I'll be taking some muscle relaxers to calm me down and 30 minutes after that is showtime. Hopefully this is the last time you all hear from me. I wish you all peace and happiness

I hope everything goes well and you find peace and rest

 

[pickedmyctbdate]

Peace out. Will be following soon.