I drug my feet while living at my last place and now that method is not an option anymore. I'm living with family now and so I've checked out a hotel room. Tomorrow morning I'm going there and I'll do it then. If I do it tonight then the family I'm staying with will come looking for me too quickly. I'll do it in the morning instead so I'll have longer. I hope this does it. I'm trying really hard not to use drugs. I know if I use drugs then I definitely will CTB but I can't bring myself to do it. I've been clean and sober for 3 years and there's just something about letting that be what kills me that I can't accept. I guess maybe it shouldn't matter but to me it does.
I'm not sure why posting this even matters but it feels good to me to say it. I'm not sure why it just does.
Goodbye and thank you all for your help.
I'm not sure why posting this even matters but it feels good to me to say it. I'm not sure why it just does.
Goodbye and thank you all for your help.
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