Venting Today it's my birthday and I feel sadder than usual.

[Tereon]

Among other things, I have depression, I don't have friends, I don't have a girlfriend, I don't have a job, I don't have money and I live in a place I don't like, so I feel lonely, sad and suicidal. Today it's my 24th bithday and I feel sadder than usual. I really would like to ctb today, but unfortunately my SN hasn't arrived yet. Unfortunately, I also don't have a gun, but I really would like to have one, so I could shoot myself in the head, specifically in the right temple, where I feel a dull pain. I cannot count how many times I wished to do that... Even little things make me sadder and with the passage of time I get even sadder. I'm tired of life, I'm tired of everything. I lost all hope and now I just wish exit this world full of unhappiness, sadness, suffering, pain and bad people. I'm exhausted.

Well, I hope today is a better day for you than it is for me. Have a good day!

 

[Kikoo Loool]

I think of you, dude. You're no more alone since you're on SS.

 

[heraclitus]

Tereon - you have friends. Everyone on this forum!

"Even little things make me sadder and with the passage of time I get even sadder. I'm tired of life, I'm tired of everything. I lost all hope and now I just wish exit this world full of unhappiness, sadness, suffering, pain and bad people. I'm exhausted."

I so get that. I really hope that this next year gets better for you.

 

[Greenberg]

Hi, Tereon, I hope your mood will brighten to one of happiness and contentment. As others have mentioned, you are among friends here.

 

[WornOutLife]

I know you're sad and this adjective might not make sense but, "Happy" Birthday!

You've managed to struggle one more year in this nonsense world we live in and that's really hard.
If you've already ordered SN, just hang on there a bit more.

As for me, I wish I had a gun but it's so difficult to get one here and even my family could get in trouble because of me and I don't what that so, I'll probably try partial hanging again whenever I feel ready because SN is extremely hard to get in Argentina and if bought abroad, the customs check everything and might sue me.

 

[letmeseethedeath]

Among other things, I have depression, I don't have friends, I don't have a girlfriend, I don't have a job, I don't have money and I live in a place I don't like, so I feel lonely, sad and suicidal. Today it's my 24th bithday and I feel sadder than usual. I really would like to ctb today, but unfortunately my SN hasn't arrived yet. Unfortunately, I also don't have a gun, but I really would like to have one, so I could shoot myself in the head, specifically in the right temple, where I feel a dull pain. I cannot count how many times I wished to do that... Even little things make me sadder and with the passage of time I get even sadder. I'm tired of life, I'm tired of everything. I lost all hope and now I just wish exit this world full of unhappiness, sadness, suffering, pain and bad people. I'm exhausted.

Well, I hope today is a better day for you than it is for me. Have a good day!

i'm also 24 and i'm in your same situation. everyday is so hard and i hate myself for not being able to kill myself. i just want to quit this shitty life. i'm also questioning if ctb with somebody else will make me die for real. i feel so alone, people around me only used me

 

[Wisdom3_1-9]

Celebrating one more rotation around the sun seems kind of meaningless when you think about, so I try not to put too much stock in birthdays. Nonetheless, it's good to set aside a day for you to be happy and "treat yo' self!" This is especially true if life is full of challenges and we don't get many opportunities to be happy.

So what's something that makes you happy? It could be anything. Any activity or food or whatever. You make sure you do that, because you deserve it. For one silly day in the rotation, you get to do what makes you happy, no questions ask.

I really do hope you have a happy birthday, even if it's just for a little while. Sending you virtual hugs!

 

[Bruces]

I'm 45 and hate life

 

[Despondent]

I hope your birthday is a little brighter today than maybe some other days and that you can spend some time with those you love.

I'm wishing you a good birthday and I hope that you can take some time to relax today and sit back I know that this won't be easy, because it's never easy but we're all here for you