Years of physical and mental abuse by parents. Years of sexual abuse by a father figure. Bullying in earlier school years. High functioning autism. My first suicide attempt was at 9 and the first thoughts regarding my own death have been there earlier. All that shit resulting in c-ptsd, dissociation, depersonalization, derealization, anxiety and just a lot of other shit. In Januar I'll be 4 years homeless.
I'm hanging in there tho and try to live even tho it's not easy and I still have suicidal thoughts almost daily.