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moldyara2002

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I own a gun. Shield ez 9mm, and hollow point bullets. But I have never shot it or any gun before. I worry about recoil and such. Since turning and holding it toward your head would be an awkward angle to hold it at. But at point blank range how hard can it really be. Would it be too stupid to choose this method without practice shooting it?
 
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Congrats on getting it. Big first step. Idk I plan to practice at a range first. I think it's best I've seen videos where the recoil was pretty bad. I do get what you're saying that it really shouldn't matter point blank though.
 
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Congrats on getting it. Big first step. Idk I plan to practice at a range first. I think it's best I've seen videos where the recoil was pretty bad. I do get what you're saying that it really shouldn't matter point blank though.
Yes that was the most difficult part. Didn't think I'd manage to be on the other side of that hurdle, but I'm there now. My mindset was that I was never gonna get past the polygraph test or their interrogation, Lol. But it was easier than I could have imagined. Where I live and the shop I went to, I was in and out in 10 minutes, no questions asked, just filling out paperwork at the counter. I was able to purchase it online through the shop's inventory website which made it even faster.
 
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idontknowwhatiam

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I own a gun. Shield ez 9mm, and hollow point bullets. But I have never shot it or any gun before. I worry about recoil and such. Since turning and holding it toward your head would be an awkward angle to hold it at. But at point blank range how hard can it really be. Would it be too stupid to choose this method without practice shooting it?
Are you able to go to a gun range or take a gun safety course so you're more comfortable with the gun? I'm planning to purchase a 12G shotgun for my ctb. Just can't gather the courage to actually go to the gun store and buy it. I live in very gun friendly, southern US state
 
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Are you able to go to a gun range or take a gun safety course so you're more comfortable with the gun? I'm planning to purchase a 12G shotgun for my ctb. Just can't gather the courage to actually go to the gun store and buy it. I live in very gun friendly, southern US state
Social anxiety prevents me from doing a lot of things like that. It was a huge accomplishment going to the gun shop and walking out with the gun. It took me over a year of reading, research, and building the nerve to go do it. Me I live in a woodsy northern hunting state
 
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Social anxiety prevents me from doing a lot of things like that. It was a huge accomplishment going to the gun shop and walking out with the gun. It took me over a year of reading, research, and building the nerve to go do it. Me I live in a woodsy northern hunting state
I give you a LOT of credit for having the courage to buy the gun.
 
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I own a gun. Shield ez 9mm, and hollow point bullets. But I have never shot it or any gun before. I worry about recoil and such. Since turning and holding it toward your head would be an awkward angle to hold it at. But at point blank range how hard can it really be. Would it be too stupid to choose this method without practice shooting it?
Hello,

as a long time shooter and gunsmith, I was training a lot of people who were shooting for first time.
It is easy. For most people is hard to hit something, but if you are shoting at point blank, no problem.
Good idea is to try shooting, at least few rounds, to get confident with handling a gun. Or at least take empty cartridge (with a bullet but without gunpowder) and practice handling the gun at home to gain confidence.
Once you feel confident enough about how to operate a gun, you are ready for this part.
Now, ammunition - hollow point is right choice. That's it.
Recoil - don't worry. It will no affect the trajectory of the bullet. You can check YouTube videos where people are shooting guns with big recoil and hitting things without problem. When you start to feel recoil, bullet already left the barrel.
Angle. This is more about anatomy than about gun itself. Just study the anatomy of head and skull, find the spots, touch your head so you can feel that you are on the right spot (the skull is not smooth, there are lots of elevations and deepenings) and you will find out which spot will be ok for you.

Basically, this is it.
This is only for educational purposes only. Do not use this text as a instructions how to act to cause harm ort self harm.
 
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I give you a LOT of credit for having the courage to buy the gun.
Thank you, it was a serious goal and obstacle
Hello,

as a long time shooter and gunsmith, I was training a lot of people who were shooting for first time.
It is easy. For most people is hard to hit something, but if you are shoting at point blank, no problem.
Good idea is to try shooting, at least few rounds, to get confident with handling a gun. Or at least take empty cartridge (with a bullet but without gunpowder) and practice handling the gun at home to gain confidence.
Once you feel confident enough about how to operate a gun, you are ready for this part.
Now, ammunition - hollow point is right choice. That's it.
Recoil - don't worry. It will no affect the trajectory of the bullet. You can check YouTube videos where people are shooting guns with big recoil and hitting things without problem. When you start to feel recoil, bullet already left the barrel.
Angle. This is more about anatomy than about gun itself. Just study the anatomy of head and skull, find the spots, touch your head so you can feel that you are on the right spot (the skull is not smooth, there are lots of elevations and deepenings) and you will find out which spot will be ok for you.

Basically, this is it.
This is only for educational purposes only. Do not use this text as an instructions how to act to cause harm ort self harm.
Thank you for taking the time to write this. It gives me a little bit more peace of mind yet
 
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Hello,

as a long time shooter and gunsmith, I was training a lot of people who were shooting for first time.
It is easy. For most people is hard to hit something, but if you are shoting at point blank, no problem.
Good idea is to try shooting, at least few rounds, to get confident with handling a gun. Or at least take empty cartridge (with a bullet but without gunpowder) and practice handling the gun at home to gain confidence.
Once you feel confident enough about how to operate a gun, you are ready for this part.
Now, ammunition - hollow point is right choice. That's it.
Recoil - don't worry. It will no affect the trajectory of the bullet. You can check YouTube videos where people are shooting guns with big recoil and hitting things without problem. When you start to feel recoil, bullet already left the barrel.
Angle. This is more about anatomy than about gun itself. Just study the anatomy of head and skull, find the spots, touch your head so you can feel that you are on the right spot (the skull is not smooth, there are lots of elevations and deepenings) and you will find out which spot will be ok for you.

Basically, this is it.
This is only for educational purposes only. Do not use this text as a instructions how to act to cause harm ort self harm.
BTW I think you meant to name yourself Deer_Diary?🤔

As to the original question, you got to shoot 100 rounds with your gun OP. You may have bought a reliable brand of gun and still have an issue with the particular piece that you have purchased. You don't want it misfiring or having some other issue when it's go time. Maybe you can hunt some deer?Apologies to @Deer_Dairy
 
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venerated-vader

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Mar 11, 2025
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I have a similar concern. I'm going to take a gun safety course soonish so I at least have an idea of what it feels like to fire this thing. And basic gun ssafety rules, because i've never been supportive of gun ownership (and to be fair, I'm still pretty unhappy about having one, but 'god bless america' /sarcasm) Its a taurus judge (so big, heavy, and has a lot of recoil) so I've got both birdshot (i think?) and a hps. The velocity is pretty slow on the bullets though, so I'm worried it won't be enough and I'll end up surviving it.

But what i'm really concerned about is the fact that, more likely than not, I won't be able to do it first time. If I put a bullet in the chamber and then decided to bail, my dumbass would 100% shoot accidentally or something while trying to take the bullet out, since i have no idea how guns work.
 
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moldyara2002

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Nov 8, 2025
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I have a similar concern. I'm going to take a gun safety course soonish so I at least have an idea of what it feels like to fire this thing. And basic gun ssafety rules, because i've never been supportive of gun ownership (and to be fair, I'm still pretty unhappy about having one, but 'god bless america' /sarcasm) Its a taurus judge (so big, heavy, and has a lot of recoil) so I've got both birdshot (i think?) and a hps. The velocity is pretty slow on the bullets though, so I'm worried it won't be enough and I'll end up surviving it.

But what i'm really concerned about is the fact that, more likely than not, I won't be able to do it first time. If I put a bullet in the chamber and then decided to bail, my dumbass would 100% shoot accidentally or something while trying to take the bullet out, since i have no idea how guns work.
What is the velocity of yours? I watched youtube videos about the functions and operating my specific gun, such as loading and emptying the chamber/magazine, safety functions, racking the slide, etc. so I at least know that part. Also watched videos of people shooting it, but personally don't know how the actual act of shooting would feel and react in my own baby hands. But I think it's just my own paranoia making me think it won't kill me good.
 
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venerated-vader

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What is the velocity of yours? I watched youtube videos about the functions and operating my specific gun, such as loading and emptying the chamber, safety functions, racking the slide, etc. so I at least know that part. Also watched videos of people shooting it, but personally don't know how the actual act of shooting would feel and react in my own baby hands. But I think it's just my own paranoia making me think it won't kill me good.
I wish I knew the velocity but the gun itself is stored in my bedroom and to get to it, I'd probably wake up my partner 🙃 But it was under 1000 I'm pretty sure. And yeah watching stuff on yt is a good idea... I did watch some awhile back but I guess I should do more of that.
 
moldyara2002

moldyara2002

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I wish I knew the velocity but the gun itself is stored in my bedroom and to get to it, I'd probably wake up my partner 🙃 But it was under 1000 I'm pretty sure. And yeah watching stuff on yt is a good idea... I did watch some awhile back but I guess I should do more of that.
Okay, the velocity of my bullets are 1150fps. I'll be looking into the information on the numbers some more too
 
Untoten_

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Will be CTBing this year.
Jan 29, 2026
74
firearms are alot easier than people think to use, it becomes mostly muscle memory at some point.

It only takes around 1000 rounds to be considered proficient. 1000 rounds sounds like a lot and it really isn't, you can burn through that in a weekend (minus the times of loading the rounds and the clearing incase of feeding issues). But even then no.

You don't need to have shot to successfully do this. At point blank ranges so long as you know where to aim, it's simple. And recoil isn't anything bad, it's a 9mm. Plus you wouldn't feel it, I can assure you, firearms are relatively easy. When I was younger I went shooting and even a break action 12 gauge feels like a light tap on the shoulder and I was really young.

You'll be fine. Just protect your ears properly if you do decide to go shooting, point it at stuff you don't mind annihilating and keep it down range even when you know it's cleared. Range owners get pissy about that last rule.
 
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Deer_Dairy

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Look, in our country is helping with suicide illegal with quite high sentences.
I'd rather add this text so that no one misinterprets it. I'm happy to help anyone with information about anything, but that doesn't mean I want to encourage them to do it.
We uderstand each other, right?
BTW I think you meant to name yourself Deer_Diary?🤔

As to the original question, you got to shoot 100 rounds with your gun OP. You may have bought a reliable brand of gun and still have an issue with the particular piece that you have purchased. You don't want it misfiring or having some other issue when it's go time. Maybe you can hunt some deer?Apologies to @Deer_Dairy
It was the first nick that slips to my mind. For some reason. Don't know why. And I like puns. For some reason. Don't know why.

About the issues of gun. When you buy some well known brand, it is really very very rare to have some major issues with it.
If there are any, it is almost everytime caused by the ammunition, not the gun itself.
Go to good gun shop and ask for recommendation of ammunition for self defense. Huge stopping power, controlled deformation of the projectile and reliable. Tell them what kind of gun you have because some guns have problems with some types of ammunition.
My .22 rifle for some reason do not "like" Aguila brand of ammuniton. I do not know why, tbh, because everything seems ok and I do not want to spent time to find out.
But my .22 gun works fine with very same ammunition.
 
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I know about weapons and ballistics. If you need to discuss it further, I'm open to answering questions
 
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