Let's be fair, I am fucked.
Less than one year ago my life was in order and everything was fine.
Sport, money, health was in good shape.
I went for a trip and left my house plus give away my stuff to donation.
2 months later, I've lost big amount of money stupidly and went to a break down black out for 3 days screaming in the street, getting crazy and trying to kill myself.
I believed it was the biggest problem I would have but guess what, it wasn't!
Try to jump from the 8th floor and cut my veins got to the hospital but left.
I got back to my family after that but thing went even more south because they did let me down and my depression was so deep that I let myself died with doing nothing but that was just a depression now thing are different.
I have big problems now with my health that no one can find. A pressure to my head who never leave me like someone is kicking it.
My jaw is shooting out electric shocks, my body feels constantly heavy, I haven't really eaten in months, and yesterday I blacked out at the only job I'd managed to find in my condition—so they fired me.
I'm constantly thinking about suicide; I'm no longer capable of doing anything. I'll end up on the street soon; my whole family has given up on me—they told me to leave and come back home but I have not home so I rented some place with roommates no so good.
Anyway, it's a long story, but I've completely trashed my life, and there's no way to get back on track because the physical and mental pain is just too much.
I managed to get hold of GHB and opioids.
I've already tried hanging myself, but nothing works.
My life has completely spiraled in less than eight months.
It's turned into an endless, fucked-up situation.
I am finding some people on MIC but I don't know if they are good one and let's be honest it will be hard to CBT.
I know it but I know I am screwed also and things will be de get back to what I was.
Work so hard all my life to get to this point of having nothing left but pain and a hole in my mind.
Less than one year ago my life was in order and everything was fine.
Sport, money, health was in good shape.
I went for a trip and left my house plus give away my stuff to donation.
2 months later, I've lost big amount of money stupidly and went to a break down black out for 3 days screaming in the street, getting crazy and trying to kill myself.
I believed it was the biggest problem I would have but guess what, it wasn't!
Try to jump from the 8th floor and cut my veins got to the hospital but left.
I got back to my family after that but thing went even more south because they did let me down and my depression was so deep that I let myself died with doing nothing but that was just a depression now thing are different.
I have big problems now with my health that no one can find. A pressure to my head who never leave me like someone is kicking it.
My jaw is shooting out electric shocks, my body feels constantly heavy, I haven't really eaten in months, and yesterday I blacked out at the only job I'd managed to find in my condition—so they fired me.
I'm constantly thinking about suicide; I'm no longer capable of doing anything. I'll end up on the street soon; my whole family has given up on me—they told me to leave and come back home but I have not home so I rented some place with roommates no so good.
Anyway, it's a long story, but I've completely trashed my life, and there's no way to get back on track because the physical and mental pain is just too much.
I managed to get hold of GHB and opioids.
I've already tried hanging myself, but nothing works.
My life has completely spiraled in less than eight months.
It's turned into an endless, fucked-up situation.
I am finding some people on MIC but I don't know if they are good one and let's be honest it will be hard to CBT.
I know it but I know I am screwed also and things will be de get back to what I was.
Work so hard all my life to get to this point of having nothing left but pain and a hole in my mind.
