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Whenhopelostmemory

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Jun 25, 2020
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Im tired... tired of spiralling back and forth between wanting to end it and pretending I don't...I'm tired..I just want it to stop..I do not wanna live ..i don't really know why I can't do it ..I've done it before ...the fear of failing maybe...I'm just so done...I wish that urge to do it came to me again atleast for a few seconds so I could finally do it right. I'm done with the shit that life is...i wish there was some way through which a person who doesn't want to live could give his life to someone who really wants to live but cannot ...it is all BS I wish I were dead. I'm just tired of everything...
 
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Painless_end

Life is too difficult for me
Oct 11, 2019
794
Im tired... tired of spiralling back and forth between wanting to end it and pretending I don't...I'm tired..I just want it to stop..I do not wanna live ..i don't really know why I can't do it ..I've done it before ...the fear of failing maybe...I'm just so done...I wish that urge to do it came to me again atleast for a few seconds so I could finally do it right. I'm done with the shit that life is...i wish there was some way through which a person who doesn't want to live could give his life to someone who really wants to live but cannot ...it is all BS I wish I were dead. I'm just tired of everything...

I can relate to this feeling. I do experience the same quite a lot.
 
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Living_Hurts_so_Much

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Jul 30, 2020
332
Im tired... tired of spiralling back and forth between wanting to end it and pretending I don't...I'm tired..I just want it to stop..I do not wanna live ..i don't really know why I can't do it ..I've done it before ...the fear of failing maybe...I'm just so done...I wish that urge to do it came to me again atleast for a few seconds so I could finally do it right. I'm done with the shit that life is...i wish there was some way through which a person who doesn't want to live could give his life to someone who really wants to live but cannot ...it is all BS I wish I were dead. I'm just tired of everything...
I understand that. I have hung around suffering in the life. For others more than myself. I am so tired of this shit life.
 
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falloutcarter13

Bury me, bury me...
Aug 1, 2020
671
...i wish there was some way through which a person who doesn't want to live could give his life to someone who really wants to live but cannot ...
^^THIS!!!! I have this thought all the time!
 
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Living_Hurts_so_Much

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Jul 30, 2020
332
I don't even have the willpower to get out of bed today. Oh how I wish I could Ctb in my sleep.
 
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