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1up

1up

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Aug 30, 2021
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I wish I wasnt me. I probably have eupd and that makes me unstable and abusive apparently but I don't want to be that person.

I'm scared and tired of myself
 
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rosie93

rosie93

Student
Aug 28, 2021
152
Me too. Ctb is the only way out for me.
 
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BetweenRadioStations

BetweenRadioStations

Student
Aug 10, 2021
134
I wish I wasnt me. I probably have eupd and that makes me unstable and abusive apparently but I don't want to be that person.

I'm scared and tired of myself
Your vulnerability is appreciated. Thanks for opening up.
 
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PSYCHO_METAL_X

PSYCHO_METAL_X

Branded By Death
Apr 20, 2021
27
I wish I wasnt me. I probably have eupd and that makes me unstable and abusive apparently but I don't want to be that person.

I'm scared and tired of myself
Have you been abusive to someone?
 
logan

logan

Warlock
May 20, 2021
704
Every person is different, unique and there are good and bad qualities in each of us.

But we are not static - you can strengthen the qualities you like and thus develop positively.

And it is important for us what others think about us - but not every opinion is right.
 
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FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
48,638
I'm tired of being myself too. Tired of the same thoughts, the same pointless empty existence. I do not want to be anything, I just want to fall into an eternal sleep. I'm sorry you are suffering.
 
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nottheend

nottheend

When will enough be enough!!
Sep 8, 2021
99
I know the feeling to well I just fuck up then then get depressed then start feeling like I'm getting somewhere then fuck up worst then before like just an endless cycle of feeling like I'm getting somewhere before inevitably fucking up again I'm sick of it now really don't know where to go from here I mean you can surely only keep trying for so long
 
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1up

1up

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Aug 30, 2021
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Every person is different, unique and there are good and bad qualities in each of us.

But we are not static - you can strengthen the qualities you like and thus develop positively.

And it is important for us what others think about us - but not every opinion is right.
Society doesn't see people as dynamic though, and they will likely ostracize people.
 
logan

logan

Warlock
May 20, 2021
704
Society doesn't see people as dynamic though, and they will likely ostracize people.
But all forms of therapy and psychiatric medications have behavior change as their goal.
But I think I know what you mean.
 
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SleepDealer

SleepDealer

Your Imaginary Friend
Aug 13, 2021
138
People with BPD have been some of my favorite people. I know saying this won't really help you, but they are quite lovable and not always abusive.
Still... I also wish I wasn't me.
 
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plough22

plough22

Living but not really, just surviving
May 1, 2020
226
I'll join the club. I hate being in this life. I hate my life. I miss the old me as I was a different and more happier person. Anyway must get up out of bed. Sending you all good wishes
 
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