This Is Why I Don’t Ask For Any Help

[starboy2k]

•Fill out jobs left and right……….
•Gets ghosted or rejected with no explanation……
•You're lazy and useless if you refuse work……
•You're incompetent and "unskilled" if work refuses you……..
•"Get a job you worthless bum" they say………
•But crickets for exploitative millionaires and billionaires who haven't worked in years……..
•Then tell me Im not "entitled to a job" because I need one……
•Encourages you to "reach out for help" when you want to finally die……..
•Yet call me a moocher for attempting to get said help…..
•Have to go through many hoops when attempting to get said help…..
•Let him starve because its all his fault…….
•Me not getting a job, its my fault…….
•Me rejected for a job, its my fault…….
•Me starving for days, its my fault…….
•Me trying to survive with what little strength I have left, Im told I should be "grateful" to be alive……..
•I finally kill myself because Im not a masochist for suffering, yet its "he lost a lonely mental battle"…….

Im fucking done……….

 

[Legacy Install]

I feel this deeply.

Was talked out of blowing my brains out and all that, and to trust the people I know.

Those people then attempted to fleece me for money, guilt trip me, treat me like shit and say how much of a drag I am for not being happy with losing my career and being forced into shit show after shit shit. Fuck. Even in my 'career' I was planninng to die.

I had a wonderful dream where despite the pain I killed myself and now that I'm awake it's like a part of me has snapped.

Nobody knows you better than you, and despite it all we live in a harsh Darwinian structure of complex mights making rights where so many of us die suffering and unheard. Basically fuck any and everyone since we're basically biological psychic/meat feeding machines with some moments of social synergy sprinkled in.

 

[PainThreshold]

I still have no idea what a "real skill" is.

 

[NihilusVan]

Beautifully put. I always wonder if life really does get better. I feel like I'm living my best life yet, but the sorrow and letdown you inflict upon others and yourself never ceases. The world is unfair, you shouldn't feel that kind of dark surrender. Just mind that there's a few people willing let you talk, although there's almost none ready to listen. I'm here, if it's any consolation.

 

[starboy2k]

I still have no idea what a "real skill" is.

I dont even care to find out at this point. Its all smoke and mirrors disguised as corpo meritocracy speech.

 

[Legacy Install]

I dont even care to find out at this point. Its all smoke and mirrors disguised as corpo meritocracy speech.

True.

It's the eternal fire under all of our adult asses.

 

[DeadManLiving]

Don't believe any of that. It's all social programming and conditioning to exploit your vulnerabilities while squeezing every drop of your economic potential utility while making you pay the bill(s) for it too.

 

[starboy2k]

Don't believe any of that. It's all social programming and conditioning to exploit your vulnerabilities while squeezing every drop of your economic potential utility while making you pay the bill(s) for it too.

Oh no I don't believe in it. I just hate that I have to hear it. Stupidity from the masses irks me dearly.

 

[DeadManLiving]

Oh no I don't believe in it. I just hate that I have to hear it. Stupidity from the masses irks me dearly.

Vvery well. Sorry things have been rough. Unless a billionaire or possessing the 'ways and means,' it's either indentured servitude under the illusion of choice, or removing oneself entirely from the game. Not for everyone necessarily.