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Darkover

Archangel
Jul 29, 2021
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my sister had to put the cat down the other week they used N and she said it looked peaceful to her.
 
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healthrecovery

Specialist
Sep 25, 2021
378
Yeah but if you're unconcious and still suffering for 30 mins or more might as well hang myself. People being in semi coma for up to 7 hours and suffering ? Vomiting after taking N and waking up out of a coma a week later doesn't sound promising

Need expert opinions on this
 
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ddd1234

Experienced
Nov 23, 2021
268
Yeah but if you're unconcious and still suffering for 30 mins or more might as well hang myself. People being in semi coma for up to 7 hours and suffering ? Vomiting after taking N and waking up out of a coma a week later doesn't sound promising

Need expert opinions on this
"the chemical equivalent of being burned at the stake".
that's so scary
 
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healthrecovery

Specialist
Sep 25, 2021
378
my sister had to put the cat down the other week they used N and she said it looked peaceful to her.
My dog also got injected but he looked really fucked up for a minute or so
 
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idiotstillwantstodie

Student
Nov 11, 2021
168
It literally says under the logo: Opposing assisted suicide. And you are asking if it's biased?

"In one case the patient's eyes remained open, and in another case, the patient sat up."

How horrifying! To die with your eyes open!

Even if the stuff in the article is true, it still means roughly 9/10 chances of swift, peaceful death. I'll take those odds.
 
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healthrecovery

Specialist
Sep 25, 2021
378
Its true that they co-deliver other sedatives and tranquilizers along with N...i actually wish there are more reports about the experience
 
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intr0verse

Arcanist
Jan 29, 2021
470
Yeah but if you're unconcious and still suffering for 30 mins or more might as well hang myself. People being in semi coma for up to 7 hours and suffering ? Vomiting after taking N and waking up out of a coma a week later doesn't sound promising

Need expert opinions on this
The only experts i would take their word on the matter are those who successfully ctb'd using N, but unfortunately they aren't arround to give us their opinion.
If you've ever been in a coma or under general anesthesia, you know you can't suffer during that time. N is similar to that, the only difference is you never wake up.
 
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ddd1234

Experienced
Nov 23, 2021
268
Unfortunately, there are at least 2 stories of unsuccessful ctb using N on this forum. That scares me a lot.
 
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intr0verse

Arcanist
Jan 29, 2021
470
Unfortunately, there are at least 2 stories of unsuccessful ctb using N on this forum. That scares me a lot.
It shouldn't scare you but prepare you to plan better.
 
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ddd1234

Experienced
Nov 23, 2021
268
https://sanctioned-suicide.net/threads/my-bizarre-story-failing-with-n.74532/

https://sanctioned-suicide.net/threads/goodbye-and-thank-you-ss-method-n.71693/
 
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healthrecovery

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Sep 25, 2021
378
I can't afford a failure and paramedics in my face i would get sectioned instantly and send back to the psysch ward. First user vomited and survived..second one couldn't even bring herself to do it and she is a pretty suicidal person in general. 2 failures aren't alot tho
 
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ddd1234

Experienced
Nov 23, 2021
268
I can't afford a failure and paramedics in my face i would get sectioned instantly and send back to the psysch ward. First user vomited and survived..second one couldn't even bring herself to do it and she is a pretty suicidal person in general. 2 failures aren't alot tho
btw. How long did you wait for your N? Have you had problems with customs?
 
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ddd1234

Experienced
Nov 23, 2021
268
I am from Central Europe.. 4 days without any troubles with customs? That's encouraging.
 
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ddd1234

Experienced
Nov 23, 2021
268
If I had N I would probably try right after Christmass.

It's a very heartbreaking time for me. My gorgeous girlfriend wants to meet with me regulary, support me, but I am like living anxious zombie, and probably will break up with her because I cannot look her in eyes. The same with my job, now there is super project that starts from January, very well paid, I always dreamt about it. I built the company from scratch, and cannot continue it because of this fucking condition. It breaks my heart.

I cannot think about anything than CTB. If I don't obtain N I would probably try hanging, there is no way I would end up in some obscure condo thinking about what my girlfriend does and how they develop the company that I built from scratch. The problem is that my family guards me 24/7 so it will be extremely hard to hang. If I have N I can book a hotel.
 
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healthrecovery

Specialist
Sep 25, 2021
378
If it hurts and I am unconscious and can't feel it, I don't care.

Anything is better than feeling what I am feeling
Feeling is good
.. i cannot feel any emotions due to some shitty anti psychotic injection i got..it might be permament
 
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Fadeawaaaay

Visionary
Nov 12, 2021
2,156
Feeling is good
.. i cannot feel any emotions due to some shitty anti psychotic injection i got..it might be permament
I should be feeling rage, Terror, Profound sadness I feel nothing…
 
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healthrecovery

Specialist
Sep 25, 2021
378
Its better to feel negative emotions than no emotions at all
 
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healthrecovery

Specialist
Sep 25, 2021
378
Are you in the military? Those shots have ruined a lot of people.

I have an unbearable physical condition. I would not want to die otherwise. I have made it 9 months. 41 days more to go.
Yeah i wish i knew beforehand how these shots ruined people i also know some vets with ptsd got injected with it and they took over one year to recover from one shot..its called invega
What kind of physical condition you got?
 
xLosthopex

xLosthopex

Tell my dogs I love them
May 29, 2020
1,133
Their slogan is "Care and compassion: opposing assisted suicide" so definitely a biased source
Unfortunately, there are at least 2 stories of unsuccessful ctb using N on this forum. That scares me a lot.
No, one of these posts you linked is mine and I failed because I didn't actually drink the N due to SI, this is not a failure of the N itself
 
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TheNorthernSilence

Arcanist
Nov 13, 2018
430
Me when I visited their site full of so-called objective statements
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PeacefulTonic

Enlightened
Aug 10, 2021
1,004
Unfortunately, there are at least 2 stories of unsuccessful ctb using N on this forum. That scares me a lot.
They were found. It doesn't mean the N wouldn't have worked

And many of them in the article were using DDMP2 or DDMA

The first three links to stats on that page are also dead btw.


792 used secobarbital, only 5 regained consciousness, basically a <1% failure rate

384 used pentobarbital, 0 regained consciousness

Are you trying to scare others? N is the best method available
 
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