Thinking of live-streaming my ctb by train on tiktok. Is there anything I should be worried about?

[askmeifimatree]

I'm planning to do as soon as possible.
Also I want to face the train head.
If anyone has any suggestion for any other tracks that is easily accessible, it would be greatly appreciated. At the moment I'm thinking of Becontree station where some trains don't stop so go at max spend.

I'm an around London.

Thank you. I rally really approviate anone.

 

[2BContinued]

Why would you wanna stream such thing?
I suggest you don't do this, the app is filled with minors who could come across that and it would scar them.

 

[askmeifimatree]

Why would you wanna stream such thing?
I suggest you don't do this, the app is filled with minors who could come across that and it would scar them.

because I never had any friends in my life. People always abandoned me. I would like for some people to be there for me while I walk into my death. Thats all really. I just want to be hugged for once. I feel sorry about myself but that won't do any good.

 

[adamantc]

because I never had any friends in my life. People always abandoned me. I would like for some people to be there for me while I walk into my death. Thats all really. I just want to be hugged for once. I feel sorry about myself but that won't do any good.

I would really advise against it. People will, unfortunately, record your death, and it may be circulated. If you really want someone else to see it, maybe call them with a video call? Make sure the rail you are on is not electrified, that can cause a much more painful death by electrocution, if you're going to be lying on the rail or otherwise touching it. The rails around London are also heavily surveilled, and you may be caught before collision. I'd go somewhere more rural where track access is less heavily monitored and the rails are less likely to be electrified. i'm no rail expert though, you should do your own research.

 

[thelostautistic]

because I never had any friends in my life. People always abandoned me. I would like for some people to be there for me while I walk into my death. Thats all really. I just want to be hugged for once. I feel sorry about myself but that won't do any good.

I'm sorry you haven't had any friends. That must be really hard. But please don't livestream this online. It's not fair to traumatise others like this.

 

[askmeifimatree]

I have no other means, I know it's selfish. I can't bring myself to ctb alone. Evenif they are not my friends or lying about it it's okay, I just want to have some company. I have been abandoned too many times.i overthinking a lot and self sabotage myself. I have to do this
Does anyone know any tracks that easily accessible please? We have many like those in Italy but can't see them much here in London.

 

[WishfulNeanderthal]

I have no other means, I know it's selfish. I can't bring myself to ctb alone. Evenif they are not my friends or laying about it it's okay, I just want to have some company. I have been abandoned too many times.i overthinking a lot and self sabotage myself. I have to do this

First of all, i am so sorry you are going through this.

Like others said, you will gain nothing from livestreaming this. You will potentially traumatize minors and people already in bad headspaces. In all probability your stream will be shared by gore communities where it will be either mocked or used as shock footage to be used on other platforms. If you have a family and you get doxxed, there is a risk that people will send clips of your livestream to your family. The end result of a livestream or recording your CTB, will result in nothing but trauma for so many people, i do not mean to say this to shame you, but to try and give some perspective on the consequences of doing this.

I would also strongly advice against the train method, it is not fair to traumatize a train driver for your own CTB. Im sure you dont want to traumatize another person. Train drivers who witness CTB's usually have to go through extensive therapy and these are everyday people who's just trying to live their lives. I would urge to reconsider, either by a different method or more prefferably by holding off on CTBing.

I wish you all the best, and i hope you reconsider.

 

[askmeifimatree]

I'm sorry, I really understand you. I promise you this was never a choice of mine. I have ordered SN three time and all threee times it has been confiscated. I'm literally a trapped animal.

I met someone on here someometimes ago and I felt like it wanted to gwt time ly together and be with her but things didnt work out as planned.

I tried hanging but I just cannot do it.

As for live-streaming, it's a purely selfish cat. Death is an art.