thinking of jumping after getting drunk tonight

[mold]

I've failed so many CTB attempts in the past 2 months and sometimes I'd back away from survival instinct kicking in last second or getting physically stopped by someone else.

I really can't take it anymore. I heard getting drunk somewhat helps. I got wasted last night and felt less scared of dying then, so I'm thinking tonight I'll get drunk again and really do it this time. I think for now I'll drink and speak to you all here for a bit. I'm just tired.

Hope you're all well. (as well as you can get on a literal suicide forum)
for now i'm listening to music I enjoy and drinking vodka, it's actually really peaceful. in a weird twisted way i feel at ease knowing i might die tonight.

 

[uselessmanz]

Good luck man. This world is fooked up.

 

[darksouls]

however you decide,
I wish you the best, I hope you find the peace you desire

 

[K-pin]

I imagine it'd be easier with alcohol. I wish you the best, however you choose

 

[Kanau_Nano]

How high are you going up? What's under you? If it's ok to ask. I'm concerned you will end up really badly injured. What music you listening too btw

 

[scordatura]

It is a nice feeling when you believe death is right there.

Enjoy your tunes! Have a nice drink! and I wish you the best no matter what happens.

We're all doing best we can in our unfortunate existances, thanks for wishing us well, and again I wish you well too. I'm sorry for whats made you feel this way.

 

[mold]

How high are you going up? What's under you? If it's ok to ask. I'm concerned you will end up really badly injured. What music you listening too btw

The building I'm going to is 7 flights up, concrete below, no people.

 

[bl33ding_heart]

Safe travels to the other side.

 

[Kanau_Nano]

The building I'm going to is 7 flights up, concrete below, no people.

That height seems really risky to me. I'm not telling you what to do, but I personally am concerned about that however because of what I've read and i read a lot about this. I wish you the best