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em4250

em4250

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Jan 24, 2026
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I'm extremely suicidal and depressed all the time and alcohol help somewhat so I've been drinking a lot. I can see that I can very easily become addicted but I just don't really care enough to stop.
 
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DarkFriend.

DarkFriend.

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May 1, 2022
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Welcome to the club. If you can afford it, drink nice things.

I say, if you're going to kill yourself slowly with alcohol--may as well enjoy it.

Every last sip...

Cheers. From a fellow suicidal alcoholic.
 
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em4250

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Jan 24, 2026
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ikm so fuckign drunk right npw
 
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Star67

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Mar 12, 2026
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I've been there before, and am there now. Drinking some vodka alone in my room as we speak. Suicide and substance abuse go hand in hand
 
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em4250

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Jan 24, 2026
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goly fuck u am m so drunk i am doing so many stupid thigsns
 
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GodzillasBiggestFan

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Jan 12, 2026
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i feel that alchohol helps me too, though i never have access and maybe that stops me.
 
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charlavail

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Mar 19, 2026
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just be aware that alcohol will probably increase the chance of you ctb. whenever i'm even slightly tipsy (most days) i end up sh and more determined to ctb
 
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em4250

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Jan 24, 2026
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I ended up in the hospital and now I have to stay in the psych ward for a bit
 
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em4250

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Jan 24, 2026
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I'm sorry you're struggling with alcohol too. How are you doing being in the hospital?🤍
I'm alright for now. My mom's with me. Idk I feel about the same as usual, haven't really had to speak with doctors and stuff yet.
 
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