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lilin

lilin

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Nov 22, 2020
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Do you have a list of things you want to do before ctb? Not responsibilities that have to be done, but things that you simply want to do.
Personally I'm going in January. Before that, I want to eat lots of good food (I've been depriving myself of it for years because of an eating disorder). I'll also rewatch all Harry Potter movies and some from Tim Burton.
+Drink alcohol and listen to music
 
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swanlife

Member
Oct 5, 2022
37
I can't enjoy much things when depressed, so i would just write some good bye letters and try to clean my apartment before i leave
 
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DarkRose

DarkRose

dark rose
Nov 25, 2022
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Do you have a list of things you want to do before ctb? Not responsibilities that have to be done, but things that you simply want to do.
Personally I'm going in January. Before that, I want to eat lots of good food (I've been depriving myself of it for years because of an eating disorder). I'll also rewatch all Harry Potter movies and some from Tim Burton.
+Drink alcohol and listen to music
I love your ideas! I would probably do something similar. :heart:
 
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Wait-Bus

Student
Sep 20, 2022
145
I have no list.

My goal is to just let the recurring urge take over me one day and sweep me to CTB. I don't want to worry about getting things done. It would be like swimming against the current. Besides once you are dead, does it matter?
 
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FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
44,455
No, I really don't want to do anything. I've had enough of being here and everything in this world is so tiring to me as well. Having the ability to be aware and conscious of this world is something that I despise, it's a burden and a curse to have that ability. I just want to not exist and never have to experience anything ever again, I hate existing in every single way and because of how I feel towards life, every waking moment for me will only ever be suffering. I don't find existing to be beneficial and worthwhile in any way, it's both pointless and painful having to be here and the only thing that is close to a relief is the thought of being permanently gone from this world.
 
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