Things are way better now.

[ILiveAlone]

It's weird looking back at my earlier posts because I'm in such a different place now. It's pretty evident by the fact that I don't log in as much anymore. Honestly, I might delete my account pretty soon. Who knows?

I just wanted to make a post about my progress and...things are good. Way, way better than they used to be. I'm back on my medication (hydroxyzine, quetiapine). Before that, I was experimenting with 'self-medicating'(?) by taking CBD, THC, acid, and drinking. I know it doesn't sound healthy, and I don't do it often, but it has made me become more... introspective? Helped me figured out who I am, who I want to be, what I want to do, etc.

I made a post a couple of months ago about drawing every day. That's been... inconsistent. Lmfao. I've started it back up since I started my medication, but, before, I would go for a couple of days at a time, or a couple of weeks at a time, then stop. But I'm back on it now because...I do want to become a better artist and, ever since I've been back in fandom culture (watching movies 'n whatnot), I have more of an urge to be creative. I bought a iPad and Apple pencil for my birthday to help with drawing/posting digital art. Before I go, I hope to post something here (a simple drawing) before the end of the year to show off my progress.
Being a part of fandom culture again has helped me find new friends/people to talk to (on top of just going out in general to get-togethers 'n whatever).

Um...I'm just rambling. I say all of this to say that, if you can get the help, get the help. With time and medication, everything else comes naturally. With no thought of my own, I've been showering consistently and eating healthier--just because I want to. I'm sure it's something subconscious in my brain being pushed by the medication, but yeah. It makes me...glad.

I'm lucky enough everything I get is free (my housing, my healthcare), so I can just be a bum that draws all day. But I hope that anyone in a similar position (Y'know, getting signed up for benefits if you're homeless or whatever--because that's what I did, in the past) can get the same stuff because...it works. Like, it just does. Well, I can't speak for the medication-resistant crowd, but if you're not a part of that crowd, get help, get medicated. It will save your life.

 

[timf]

Congratulations on taking control and building a better life. You may want to make sure you use a portion to include others to help take yourself out of yourself occasionally. Too much "self" time can amplify negative thoughts.

 

[Graveyardly]

Well, I can't speak for the medication-resistant crowd, but if you're not a part of that crowd, get help, get medicated. It will save your life.

Well you had to throw us under the bus one last time didn't you ? Jkjk love that everything is going great for you, medication does help, even if sometimes it doesn't fix, it makes it more bearable.

Good message !

 

[SASU-KE]

I was in a dark place last year. Things are going phenomenally well this year. I am in a good mood most of the time . My work is going well. I'm having passive income coming in. Last few years have been terrible, but this year has been much better.

I'll be back to the gym in a couple of months. Get my diet locked in.Start travelling.

There are definitely situations where things do get better.