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TimeToBiteTheDust

Visionary
Nov 7, 2019
2,321
Why going on living if I don't enjoy anything? This is pointless. I don't want to force myself to live.
 
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Mr2005

Mr2005

Don't shoot the messenger, give me the gun
Sep 25, 2018
3,622
Right. I've got a girlfriend but I don't have sex with her. I've got a SNES but I don't play it etc etc
 
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DyingAlf

Specialist
Aug 22, 2020
345
My thoughts exactly
Well almost exactly.... I'd be more likely to say I don't want to force myself to exist (because this isn't living)
 
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Spitfire

Enlightened
Apr 26, 2020
1,273
I do not really enjoy much of anything anymore either.

What I used to truly enjoy I am no longer able to do. I found something else for a little while, but I grew tired of it bc it just was not the same.

The other things and hobbies I used to enjoy have lost there appeal now too. I even tried... Nope, did not work.

I am pretty sure it is time to start smoking some good weed and hang with family for a few months before sending myself off to get away from all of this.

That is the plan anyway, and I will enjoy doing that before I go.. the time
 
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MariV

Arcanist
Sep 13, 2020
487
yes...the title of the thread is so self-evident that i wonder how can people reject it. 2 friends of mine have ctbd and i indeed relieved that they ended their sorrow
 
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Meditation guide

Meditation guide

Always was, is, and always shall be.
Jun 22, 2020
6,082
Why going on living if I don't enjoy anything? This is pointless. I don't want to force myself to live.
There is no point. I've not cried in a few months now and was proud that I could go so long without breaking down but now,
I shed a few tears. I've reached my breaking point finally. It's way past not enjoying anything for me, that was years ago.
I was trying to tell myself what fun I was having watching youtube videos.
I think I've seen most of them by now.
 
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foxdie

Got my ticket
Aug 18, 2020
1,011
There is no point. I've not cried in a few months now and was proud that I could go so long without breaking down but now,
I shed a few tears. I've reached my breaking point finally. It's way past not enjoying anything for me, that was years ago.
I was trying to tell myself what fun I was having watching youtube videos.
I think I've seen most of them by now.

I have to keep telling YouTube to stop recommending videos I've already watched. I relate to this a lot, basically my only distraction right now. But I think my laptop might be dying so things might get interesting (or the opposite actually) very soon.
 
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Spitfire

Enlightened
Apr 26, 2020
1,273
I have to keep telling YouTube to stop recommending videos I've already watched. I relate to this a lot, basically my only distraction right now. But I think my laptop might be dying so things might get interesting (or the opposite actually) very soon.

Lucky laptop
 
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Shinkansen

Shinkansen

life is pain
Jul 14, 2020
615
in life I have done nothing but study and work.
I didn't have a good time and never had a girlfriend, and I also grew up in a dysfunctional family.
life is hell for many people.
 
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pdyduc

pdyduc

Member
Aug 4, 2020
22
Genuinely living like a cog in the machine at this point.
 
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nitroautnz

Specialist
Sep 11, 2020
361
Yeah, just taking day one by one at the moment, waiting the bus...
 
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FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
48,765
I agree, I feel like I died a long time ago. People act like death is the worst thing but an empty life is worse.
 
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LenkaX

LenkaX

Maybe there is a hope!
Aug 14, 2020
366
I think that if you are lonely and socially isolated and you know this will never get better plus you don't enjoy your past hobbies anymore, then it's the right time to contemplate suicide. I think I'm ready for an attempt of hanging the following Wednesday. I will try not to overthink it because the most successful people with CTB just do it and don't even think about it.
 
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islima

islima

Member
Jun 12, 2020
34
Exactly what is point of of living when you have nothing that makes you happy and you enjoy.
 
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Superdeterminist

Enlightened
Apr 5, 2020
1,873
100% agree. In my view, life should be enjoyable, and that's a view I'll never change. Some people don't agree with this though, which I find both baffling and sad.
 
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TimeToBiteTheDust

Visionary
Nov 7, 2019
2,321
I think that if you are lonely and socially isolated and you know this will never get better plus you don't enjoy your past hobbies anymore, then it's the right time to contemplate suicide. I think I'm ready for an attempt of hanging the following Wednesday. I will try not to overthink it because the most successful people with CTB just do it and don't even think about it.
This is how I feel. I feel lonely all the time even when I'm with people and I don't enjoy my past hobbies. It's not the same emotion. Maybe I distract myself a little but it's not the same kind of enjoyment as some years ago. And that's why I think anytime would be good to ctb because I'm already done with life.
 
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Ghost2211

Archangel
Jan 20, 2020
6,015
Feeling lonely in a group is even worse than feeling lonely alone. I'm sorry you're so sad.
 
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TheSomebody

TheSomebody

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Sep 28, 2020
283
I don't feel happiness anymore. If I'm not sad, I'm normal. It's the best I can get and it sucks.

Since the meaning of life is up to you, then a life you despise is not worth living. You're just torturing yourself for nothing
 
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