Venting the waiting is the hardest part...

[sadbadpsychogirl]

now i know this sounds redundant and pointless but do you ever just get tired of waiting for the right moment to come along? right now i am waiting on someone to deliver me what i need to ctb... i know i could just give in and hang or jump or whatever but really i just want a peaceful death. i have tried hanging (the pressure in the face is unbearable) i've tried antifreeze, literally nothing happened, tried an air embolism, same result, amitryptyline, heroin, and i think that's it. i know i should stop complaining and just do something but 1. it never seems to work out, 2. i want it to be painless. anyone in the same boat?

 

[Deleted member 19654]

I can relate. I wish I was able to get hold of some SN. I feel impatient and I want to ctb but don't really have a way to do it.

I've seen posts about the amitryptiline cocktail method. It didn't work for you?

 

[sadbadpsychogirl]

it was just a bottle of amitryptylene and i was 17 so i really didn't know what i was doing. i got caught and had to drink activated charcoal. it was prescribed for a sleep disorder and i only had about 30 of them so i doubt it would have worked anyway

 

[Deleted member 19654]

I think I read that you need 7/8g of it for it to be fatal

 

[Rn110bg101]

Same here. I have everything I need, I'm just waiting for the right time… but it's coming at a snail's pace, meanwhile I'm suffering because of this world. Fuck this

 

[ScaredGirl]

same here im waiting to get everything I need in the UK getting SN is damn near impossible i ordered off several sites and they asked for proof of professional use and I ordered form abroad but im not hopefull it will pass customs. if i had the means righ here right now I'd double check my note, drop my bank deets to my partner and then CTB

 

[Adamsnolife]

I'm in a waiting game. I'm needing the UK lockdown restrictions to significantly ease to head to my ctb. Frustrating when I can't do it earlier

 

[Pookie]

I feel you. I hate this waiting game. I just want to go now. Wish we had an exit button, if only it was that simple.

You tried a heroin OD? Why didn't it work out?

 

[sadbadpsychogirl]

i just didn't have enough in the needle. and it wasn't very strong stuff

 

[Hidan Smith]

We are in the same boat, I'm here alone just hoping for my SN to come before day 31. I tried partial hanging several times, including yesterday. I know exactly that type of pressure you are talking about.