The time has nearly come

[loopylou]

For me to leave this world.
I can't keep doing this never ending cycle of self hate much longer.
feeling like nobody who personally knows me care about me.

a sentence ran through my mind at home earlier, I have had a shit few days of feeling invisible to my family and friends and it said ... ' you don't care that I'm here, but you'll care when im not'

this is so true to my life. I'm a convienience to most. The person who will always be there to use.

so yea, I think I shall be expiring real soon. I will post a goodbye thread so I can thank the community properly soon

 

[WornOutLife]

Oh dear, I wasn't expecting this.

We'd better enjoy our time together before you leave.

You know you can always count on me and I really just want the best for you, especially peace.

 

[Last chance]

a sentence ran through my mind at home earlier, I have had a shit few days of feeling invisible to my family and friends and it said ... ' you don't care that I'm here, but you'll care when im not'

I wrote something along these lines a few years ago,I hate how hypocritical people are.



Dead - He was always the life and soul of the party.
Alive -I have to warn you he's a bit loud.

Dead - I will miss just hanging out with him.
Alive - Sorry I am busy.

Dead - He always knew how to cheer me up.
Alive - I'm fine,I don't want to talk about it.

Dead - I just wish I could have one more conversation with him.
Alive - Sorry I forgot to reply,what were you talking about.

Dead - He was such a perfect son.
Alive - Hopefully you will grow up one day.

Dead - He was such a great friend to me.
Alive - Sorry I haven't spoken to you recently,I've been busy.

Dead - I just wish he had talked to me about it.
Alive - Oh no :( Hey did I tell you about……

Dead - What he did was selfish to those he left behind.
Alive - Cant you just get over it ? Everyone is sick of your moaning.

Dead - I just wish I said what I was really thinking.
Alive - Yeah maybe,Ill let you know.

Dead - I will never forget him.
Alive - Sorry,I totally forgot we made plans.

Im sorry youre feeling so shit,I have been in the same mindset for weeks now,just waiting until I give up the last bit of hope that things will get better.

 

[bloomingdark]

I'm sorry... People can be really carefree sometimes we get so much in this routine we don't realize people around us that much, it sucks

I hope you can be a little bit better whatever you decide.

Hugs

 

[loopylou]

I wrote something along these lines a few years ago,I hate how hypocritical people are.



Dead - He was always the life and soul of the party.
Alive -I have to warn you he's a bit loud.

Dead - I will miss just hanging out with him.
Alive - Sorry I am busy.

Dead - He always knew how to cheer me up.
Alive - I'm fine,I don't want to talk about it.

Dead - I just wish I could have one more conversation with him.
Alive - Sorry I forgot to reply,what were you talking about.

Dead - He was such a perfect son.
Alive - Hopefully you will grow up one day.

Dead - He was such a great friend to me.
Alive - Sorry I haven't spoken to you recently,I've been busy.

Dead - I just wish he had talked to me about it.
Alive - Oh no :( Hey did I tell you about……

Dead - What he did was selfish to those he left behind.
Alive - Cant you just get over it ? Everyone is sick of your moaning.

Dead - I just wish I said what I was really thinking.
Alive - Yeah maybe,Ill let you know.

Dead - I will never forget him.
Alive - Sorry,I totally forgot we made plans.

Im sorry youre feeling so shit,I have been in the same mindset for weeks now,just waiting until I give up the last bit of hope that things will get better.

Very accurate!!!