squillykilly
Stupid Chud
- Dec 15, 2025
- 91
Tw mentions of grooming and SA
It's been horrible lately, seeing any form of grooming or SA material makes me horrifically unwell, I have to scroll away or look away I can't handle it. The most I've been through is getting BARELY groomed at 14 by a 23 youtuber online, and even then, he just told me about his kinks and such. I wish he did more to me, i dont know why, I just wish someone would hurt me really bad. It's too late for me to go through CSA, Idk why I want that so bad, maybe to have a reason to feel this horrible. Maybe to prove to my mum that maybe I don't have it so easy as she says i do, fuck man I just want to be hurt. I want someone to ruin my mental state, I just want someone to blame for how I feel. Why I'm like this. I don't want to be the one to blame, but it's all my fault, please someone hurt me I'm begging you.
I'm not okay man...
It's been horrible lately, seeing any form of grooming or SA material makes me horrifically unwell, I have to scroll away or look away I can't handle it. The most I've been through is getting BARELY groomed at 14 by a 23 youtuber online, and even then, he just told me about his kinks and such. I wish he did more to me, i dont know why, I just wish someone would hurt me really bad. It's too late for me to go through CSA, Idk why I want that so bad, maybe to have a reason to feel this horrible. Maybe to prove to my mum that maybe I don't have it so easy as she says i do, fuck man I just want to be hurt. I want someone to ruin my mental state, I just want someone to blame for how I feel. Why I'm like this. I don't want to be the one to blame, but it's all my fault, please someone hurt me I'm begging you.
I'm not okay man...