The thought of my funeral is so calming

[pumpkinpie]

I would love to wear a beautiful black baby doll dress with a Peter Pan collar, white gloves and a slight smile on my face. I wouldn't want my family to cry, I would want them to be happy for me. I just can't live like this anymore in a world that I hate so much it's unbearable.

 

[rosie93]

Nice dream... I wish I had no funeral at all. Is it strange?

 

[pumpkinpie]

Nice dream... I wish I had no funeral at all. Is it strange?

Not at all~

 

[Sra_TZ]

The thought of my funeral is actually pretty depressing. I mean, I can't help that some people who genuinely love me will be hurt and knowing hard it will be for them to attend just breaks me. Convincing them that I have no purpose to live is easier said than done.

There are certain feelings of anger involved too. I'm certain that fake abusive people who have constantly hurt me will say wonderful things about me and my life at my funeral.

*sigh* Alas there's hardly anything I can do to prevent my funeral from taking place..
~S

 

[BobMorane]

I want to throw a party for my funeral. lmao

 

[FuneralCry]

I do not like the sound of a funeral personally, I do not want anyone to remember me. I want to be completely forgotten. I guess if others choose to have a funeral, it is not my concern. By that point, I will no longer be existing.

 

[destiny]

I too find the thought of my funeral strangely soothing.

 

[rosie93]

I wish I had no funeral at all. Is it strange?

I do not like the sound of a funeral personally, I do not want anyone to remember me. I want to be completely forgotten. I guess if others choose to have a funeral, it is not my concern. By that point, I will no longer be existing.

Me too. I guess it would be perfect too kill yourself somewhere where no one is ever going to find your body.

 

[draw a circle]

I like imagining my funeral. Whenever i attend a funeral (which is a lot, like this month i had like 3 funerals?? That's only the ones i can attend due to the pandemic. Anyway) i like to imagine what would happen if i was the one dead. The reactions of people i know. It's gonna be a sad scene tbh my family loves me a lot and my grandparents are so old they already lost so many friends and family and even people younger than them (which also a lot since they're healthy for 90 year olds). My friends would cry... But i believe they will keep on going, strongly even without me. Even if people loves me that much, it's not something that makes me want to stay, bc my decision i made for myself not for anyone. Even if people will grieve over me, if i die i can't feel guilty or sad for them, so it doesn't matter really.

 

[Maravillosa]

I also like to imagine my funeral. I see myself wearing a white wedding gown like this:

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In death, my hands are folded on my chest. I hold the rosary I use most and my favorite icon of the Mother of God:

https://i.ebayimg.com/images/g/xVAAAOSwvGdbnrlN/s-l300.jpg

Like @pumpkinpie , I would also have a small sweet enigmatic smile on my face. Assuming that I ctb by hanging, the ligature mark would not be disguised with makeup or covered with a scarf or suchlike. I would not be ashamed that I ctb: it should not be something to hide.

I can imagine the hymns sung at my funeral: "Shepherd Me, O God" (a paraphrase of the 23rd Psalm), "Prayer of St. Francis", "Ave Maria", "Flos Carmeli". I assume people will cry: I want them to be sad but not devastated. I want them to pray for the happy repose of my soul, that my soul goes quickly to Heaven.

After the funeral, I suppose my corpse will be cremated and my ashes placed in a columbarium in a Catholic cemetery:

https://etc.usf.edu/clippix/pix/wreath-at-columbarium_small.jpg