HFK40000
Not Living Just Killing Time
- Apr 14, 2026
- 42
I hate how easy it is for me to go from one extreme to another just from a single person. My ex is the love of my life and they ghosted me for three months and it completely broke me. That all changed last Friday when they agreed to go to a show with me next month on the condition that we have an in depth conversation first. I started going sober, saw a therapist and I promised that I would do whatever it takes to get better. I have been making plans to ctb on my upcoming birthday but, in an instant I changed my plans because having her in my life makes it worth living. It has been three days since she last responded to any of my messages and I am right back to rock bottom. I hate how little it takes for me to completely fall apart. I suddenly had hope and could see myself living a wonderful life but then three days of silence and now I just want to die.
