The feeling of guilt

[oono]

Hello, I am writing this thread, because in a few months I will be ready for ctb and I feel guilty about my family situation. I have lived with my father for several years, we are there all the time or very often both. That only family in the region where we live is me and I feel guilty to know it alone when I am no longer there ... He has friends, his brother who lives far away, but I still have this feeling unpleasant in me. What do you think ? Does other person have a feeling similar to mine? Finally I plan to go to a hotel room, I prefer that it is a stranger who finds me rather than my father.

Thanks for reading me and sorry for my bad english

 

[FuneralCry]

In my case, I know others would be sad, but I would never be able to suffer for the sake of others, and it would be selfish of them to expect me too. After all, we did not ask to exist in the first place. I will probably write a note to try and give them some closure. I wish you the best with your plans, I hope you find the peace you are looking for.